El Jardin de los Muertos
Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Halloween's, or, if you really want to get serious about it, "el dia de los muertos," has come and gone and, in addition to a little nod to the day in photos, I have my usual library poets this week and the usual stuff from me, and, as a bonus, poems from two of my poet friends, Dan Cuddy and Francina Hartstra.
Gregory Corso Three Dear Girl Writ When I Found Out His Was an Unmarked Grave The Saving Quality The Differences of Zoos
Me how glad I am
Jeannette Lozano My Sister Linden 197 Piece of a Dream with Gesualdo Cold Flame
Me all my dithers done
Sapphire Dark Sores Leave the Lights On
Me paying the price
Tallapaka Annamayya From God on the Hill - Temple Poems from Tirupati
Me nothing more you are; nothing better could you be
Dan Cuddy Manifesto of a Sort
Me lament of the poem-a-day-poet
Francina Hartstra On Midsummer’s Night Without Regrets The Glass Pavilion Night Travelers A Day Like Today A Long Summer’s Night
Me the line between dark and light
Charles Bukowski nothing here my last winter first poem back
Me about these cold winds that blow
Grace Paley Having Arrived by Bike at Battery Park My Father at 89 On the Subway Station
Me the escaping-heat-through-the-top-of-your-head theory
Robert Levy Biology
Me unfinished business
Annamaria Ferramosca After Rilke’s Eighth Elegy Jrmaa el Fna Square
Me pagan holidays
Brigit Pegeen Kelly Wild Turkeys: The Dignity of the Damned
Me yellow flowers
David St. John Guitar Hush
Me occupy time: a protest from the chronologically confused crowd
From Berkeley Poetry Review, Winter,1977 Vickie Hearne A Technical Question for a Daughter James Story The Morning Climb Karen Swenson Spring
Me the elusive poetry/fine poetry writing experience

I start this week with several poems by Gregory Corso, from his book, Mindfield,published by Thunder's Mouth Press in 1989.
Corso, born in New York City in 1930, moved to the West Coast in 1956 where he became a central figure in the new Beat Generation literary movement. Since 1961, he has alternated travel and residence in Europe and New York with teaching residencies. He had published six previous books of poetry, beginning in 1955, before this book.
Corso died in 2001, with this the last book I can find credited to him.
Three
1
The streetsinger is sick crouched in the doorway, holding his heart.
One less song in the noisy night.
2
Outside the wall the aged gardner plants his shears A new young man has come to snip the hedge
3
Death weeps because Death is human speding his day in a movie when a child dies.
Dear Girl
With people conformed Away from pre-raphaelite furniture With no promise but that of Japanese sparsity I take up house
But when the conquered spirit breaks free and indicates a new light Who'll take care of the cats?
Writ When I Found Out His Was an Unmarked Grave
Children children don't you know Mozart has no place to go This is so Though graves be many He hasn't any
The Saving Quality
Bad nights of drunk make bad days of sorry
Last night was stained with fear I or the world was all wrong
Today in hard wind and rain I stand on Putney's bridge flinging ritz crackers to the swans ducks and gulls below assuring myself: day or night you're all right
A Differences of Zoos
I went to the Hotel Broog; and it was there I imagined myself singing Ave Maria to a bunch of hoary ligneous Brownies. I believe in gnomes, in midges; I believe to convert the bogeyman, take Medusa to Kenneth's; beg Zeus Polyphemus a new eye; and I thanked all the men who ever lived, thanked life the world for th chimera, the gargoyle, the spinx, the griffin, Rumpelsilskin - I sang Ave Maria for the Heap, the Groot, for the mugwump, for the Throth, the centaur, Pan; I summoned them all to my room in the Broog, the werewolf, the vampire, Frankenstein every monster imaginable and sang and sang Ave Maria - The room got to be unbearable! I went to the zoo and oh thank God the simple elephant.

I wrote the next poem the day after we returned from out trip to New Mexico and Colorado.
Though not a part of the trip, it is definitely a product of it.
how glad I am
just returned from our travels and I think of how much my mother enjoyed traveling with us when our son was young, the pleasure she took in seeing all the things she had never seen, the mountains, especially, the mountains, and the forests, and the foliage along the roadside and how, even on the narrowest mountain road she would want to stop and cut some of that roadside growth for the flower arrangements she made for the hospital to sell
and how we should have done more traveling with her and how lonely she must have been when my father died and she lived alone with her three sons gone, visiting when the could, but in the end, gone...
and, thinking all that, and of my own future as I approach my mother’s age, not so distant now as it seemed at the time - thinking how glad I am that I am not the woman who will outlive me, thinking how grateful I am that I will not die alone, that I will not have to endure alone the loneliness of age, of obsolence and fitful nights, the loneliness of being last among all I knew, how, always so self-contained, I will not finally one day open the windows I’ve always kept tight, throw wide the open door only to find there is no one still waiting…
that I will not be left behind by those who never even knew I was there;
that there will be a companion there to hold my hand as the shade of forever night is drawn

Next I have several poems from one of the most beautiful books I own, The Movements of Water/Los momentos del agua, with poems by Jeannette Lozano and art by Victor Ramirez. I'm sorry that I cant show you the artist's paintings.
It's a bilingual book, with English and Spanish on facing pages, with translations by Ron Hudson. The book was published in 2006 by Ediciones PoliGrafa of Barcelona.
The poet, Lozano, a poet and translator, has spent many years teaching and writing about the ancient philosophy and religion of Pre-Hispanic culture, focusing in particular on myth and its function in forming the individual. Winner of numerous literary awards, her work has been translated into English, French, Italian and Romanian.
My Sister
She was passing the hours reclined on the sofa,she was rain and cascade from the eaves. The volume was rising so the weary steps went unheard in the corridor.
She knew running and filling her lungs with air, immersing herself four meters beneath the water's surface until obtaining lofty bronze trophies
Sometimes I thought how dangerous to hold one's breath so many minutes, I came to believe she would disappear forever. I lived the illusion of no return: sinking beneath the level, a few centimeters more beneath the level. No one feels safe out of one's elements To endure the descent is necessary.
Linden 197
The sea is alone, like us, the newly born, in water. In it,the night sinks beneath the waxing moon (its powder on our faces).
Spring is the season of death.
We inscribe the epitaph, on high our names, to make believe to the denuded skies that at least a wise word slipped from our narrow mouths, near a few flowers.
We come to pluck the petals,, not to take a count of heartbeats.
Our heads entangled our bodies mistreated return to voracious melancholy.
Piece of a Dream with Gesualdo
The depth of night was shining, the initial horizon in an attempt to scatter the chants.
I was searching for the hill, the house, the traces of fog in the sharp leaves of the cypress.
I saw a bridge sink, the whiteness, the voice of the tree I heard.
Cold Flame
As if it would beat out a silence the gold of the fireflies between spruces was impassioned.
The light was falling on the water and you were moving away like one who exits a scene without one's body.
Fire amidst the water, was tracing a wake without knowing that the sun was looking at you
for the first time.

I wrote this several days before we went on our trip and I don't think I used it before.
all my dithers done
I’ve done all my other dithers and I’m ready to write my poem for the day, but Dee is due here any minute and I know if I find something good and she comes I’ll either lose it and be angry at her or I’ll just continue writing while she sits there having her waffle without me, being angry at me
so I decided I’m going to write something not so good so that when she comes and I stop and fall off the word-train I will not have lost anything of significance and will not be angry at myself or, probably at anybody at all since I find myself very lovable and difficult to get or stay mad at
and there are two kinds of angry people in the world; those always angry at someone else or those always angry at themselves and since I’m neither of those kinds I’m not one of the two kinds of people in the world who are always angry
rather I am one of the two kinds of people in the world who always have a silly smile on their face, the kind who didn’t get the memo and don’t know better and the kind, like me, who got the memo and decided if things really were that bad, nobody would be writing memos, but more likely running around in circles with their heads up their asses, and, as I recall, many of the memos inflicted on me during my extended career in public service did seem to originate with people with their heads in their asses running around in circle, otherwise called politicians and high government officials of all persuasions
and I could say a lot more about that but Dee’s just now walking in the door and, fortunately, I have nothing being interrupted whose lose would be a great concern to me or to anyone else, including almost certainly you
so I quit right here

I have a couple of poems by Sapphire, from her book, Black Wings & Blind Angels. The book was published in 2000 by Knopf.
Fifty years old when this book was published, these poems show a Sapphire a little different than what I've come to expect from reading other of her poems, her anger, not moderated, but more quiet.
Dark Sores
Dark sores black wings of expectation what is sidereal light twice? I meet hope at the train station
Whistle blows, tracks rattle, I run down someplace forty years, a wedding, rice. Dark sores black wings of expectations.
You are connected like a generation in white blouses trying to be nice. Hope is at the train station.
Fat palm trees, tan briefcase, vacation a million miles from every night dark sores. Black wings of expectation.
We're girls, just wanna have fun! The wedding rice turns to beans every night you slip out seek hope at the station.
tell him you're alone, on vacation that there is a sidereal light. Dark sores black wings of expectation open and meet hope at the train station.
Leave the Lights On
It is act of courage to say, Leave the lights on. There is actually every thing to hide Flaccid, distended, fort-seven, so much is gone.
If I had gone to the gym, the tumors operated on perhaps I could have displayed my body with more pride. As it is,it is an act of courage to leave the lights on.
And,truthfully, I'm curious to see,now that beauty is gone, what will be reflected in a man's eyes. Flaccid, belly distended with tumors, so much is gone.
But still the ugly body is love's sweet swan. Love doesn't ask one to be blind or hide. It is an act of courage to leave the lights on.
Oh! He doesn't even have a condom! It is in my hard muscular courage I take pride. Breasts flaccid, gut distended, at forty-even so much is gone.
But inside the fat egg is the black swan. My throat opens like wings between your thighs. It is an act of courage to say, Leave the light on. Nothing essential , but stillso much is gone.

This is a little early-morning piece. Actually, not so early, or I wouldn't have been late.
And, of course, it's important to remember that I wasn't really late to anything anyone else would consider worth hurrying to.
paying the price
high pedestrian walkway over the downtown expressway
young boy, backpack bouncing, runs to school, like a large bird flying against the sun, another shadow, running across the sky, late again…
I, also running late, struggle against traffic, commuters usually still in their beds when I pass, up today to their usual work-a-day tricks…
me and the boy, paying the price of an extra hour’s sleep

Trying to calculate the distance between Sapphire and Tallapaka Annamayya , who lived at the great hilltop shrine of Tarupati in south India in the fifteenth century is a measure of the distance "Here and Now" travels every week across the world and time. It's the kind of thing I wanted to do when I started the blog and I'm happy to think I succeeded.
Annamayya is said to have composed a song a day for the god this his temple. Late in his life, or, possibly, not long after his death, some thirteen thousand of his daily poems were gathered, inscribed on copper plates, and stored in a special vault inside the temple.
I also write a poem a day but expect none of them ever to be saved on copper plates. Mine exist only on the web, a media that, to tell the truth, still doesn't seem like something all that natural and real to me.
Here in one of Annamayya's poems, taken from the book, God on the Hill - Temple Poems from Tirupati, published by Oxford University Press in 2005.
None of the songs in the book, translated from the classical Telugu by Velcheru Narayana Rao and David Shulman, are titled.
As a non-believer who enjoys theological discussion, I really enjoyed this poem, the way it goes from the erotic to the metaphysical, exploring the dichotomy of human concern and experience.
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These marks of black musk on her lips, red as buds, what are they but letters of love sent by our friend to her lover?
Her eyes the eyes of a cakora bird, why are they red in the corners?
Think it over, my friends: what is it but the blood still staining the long glances that pierced her beloved after she drew them from his body back to her eyes.
What are they but letters of love?
How is it that this woman's breasts show so bright through her sari?
Can't you guess my friends? It's the rays from the crescents left by the nails of her lover, rays luminous as moonlight on a summer night?
What are they but letters of love?
What are these graces, these pearls, raining down her cheeks?
Can't you imagine my friends? What could they be but beads of weat left on her gentle face by the god on the hill when he pressed hard, frantic in love?
What are they but letters of love?
You're just about as much as one imagines you to be. As they say the more dough, the more bread.
People who follow Vishnu love you as Vishnu. Philosophers speak of you as the ultimate. Those who go with Siva think of you as Siva. Those who carry skulls see a skull in your hand.
You are as one imagines.
People who serve the goddess think you are their goddess. Different schools of though measure you by their thoughts. Small people think of you to get rich, and for them you become small. Thoughtful minds contemplate you're depths, and for them you are deep,
as deep as one imagines
There's nothing missing in you. The lotus spreads to the limits of the lake. There's water in the Ganges, also in wells on the shore. You're the god on the hill, the one who's taken hold of me. For me, you are real.
as real as I imagine
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This poem I took from my reading of the poem above, Annamayya's "God of the Hill."
nothing more you are; nothing better could you be
I believe we are creators of gods, not the other way around and I hold to no religion based on such inventions, not the standard types preached from the pulpit Sunday mornings, not the god of tents and religious revivals, not the god of born again, not the god of those who prostrate themselves before the moon every third Thursday of every third month -
but if I did want to believe in a god and could choose he/she/it to whom I would defer, I would chose the god of the hill for whom Annamayya wrote a new song every day…
not a god who reigns, who rules his believers with a face of wrath and a voice of thunder -
instead a god who reflects his believers, who walks with his believers humbly, not ahead, not behind, but stride for stride together, a god that morphs from you to me to be for you and for me what we need our god to be
People who serve the goddess think you are their goddess. Different schools of thought measure you by their thoughts. Small people think of you to get rich, and for them you become small. Thoughtful minds contemplate you're depths, and for them you are deep
not a god who makes and molds us in his image ( for who would want the image of a true god to be their own?)
but a god created by us for purposes imagined by us, to fill the void that death leaves in the passages of all lives - a god who is holy because we, creatures of both the light and night, are holy even in all our human incompetencies -
a god who only in us and with us is complete - a god who seeks us as we seek it, for only together are either of us complete
There's nothing missing in you, says Annamayya, to his god on the hill, The lotus spreads to the limits of the lake. There's water in the Ganges, also in wells on the shore. You're the god on the hill, the one who's taken hold of me. For me, you are real.
but you are real and powerful and out-reaching to all the life in me because I made you that way, he adds - you are real he says…
as real as I imagine
and nothing more you are, I add in my own voice, and nothing better could you be
for me

Here's poem from my poet-friend Dan Cuddy from Baltimore.
Manifesto Of A Sort
I write to survive death but of course it doesn't work the words disappear after speaking the letters crumble into electrons or fade into the paper I don't have the talent I don't have the connections I'm not important except to myself and I think that is a sin of pride I am just one more bit of organized bone and muscle and flab awaiting dissolution the vapor of life steaming into the night only to cool unconscious on the dark leaves or on plastic flowers or on the forbidding stones lined up in their mock of organization death like an army Death Is An Army
the poems I fire back fall the professors won't read the desperate scratchings of a man trying to climb out of himself too amateur that average neurotic life heeing and hawing taking pees behind the cemetery wall averting his eyes from mirrors cringing at the Holy Ghost who is a Church hell-bent on Inquisition and all I wanted was the Garden of Earthly Delights the words for plum and green and purple to shimmer the way leaves do on the summer ground but but but always that critical wedge of reality an old tattered coat and a stick in hand a raging piece of verse that is someone else
my hope in the letters of the word are dashed as the power goes out the city dark the wind swirling breaking everything to pieces only the fear of dissolution remains and the remains of all those others who I loved, admired, ate with remain
a fool thinks his poetry is good special deserves to be burning through all eternity God is problematical poetry is desperate vanity unless it is about love but all love matures into death and dream we do dream we do that everything has more than temporal meaning but belief comes in empty-handed from the desert carried by those who cannot question themselves see the darkness scratch the eyes out of illusion
perhaps Buddha but then I must remain silent before death and there is still this ego bursting with fear, desire abstract words that mean nothing without the sensation crawling, caressing the skin
I am a poet of desperation bloated in body crazy in mind howling outside the skyscrapers all that steel, glass, plastic containing nothing
and the college professors teach and warm each others' egos with praise and I am that miserable Robinson Jeffers staring at the cold ocean
but all this is about wanting to live and time just falls out blows away your hand drops turns to sand

The danger for a poem-a-day poet, as he searches for a new idea for a new day, is becoming overly influenced by whatever he last read, producing, instead of something new and original, a pale copy of someone else's work.
That would never happen to me, of course.
lament of the poem-a-day- poet
just read ten poems
great ideas contained therein
that I could steal for my own poem today
but will wait a day or two instead
so my theft will not be so obvious….
instead another poem (yes, another)
about my day, how exciting many might think
a day in the life of a poet - though aquiver
with anticipation as you might be I must admit
the life of a poet not nearly so exciting
as it might seem as seen from the outside -
mainly we sit in coffee houses
drinking the dregs of another day of failure
no epic today
just another piling on of uninteresting words
in a string that stretches far down the page
making excuses about how we almost
found that poem of the century
the one that, all on it’s own,
would have won us the Nobel
but it slipped away again today just like
yesterday and the day before

Here's another of my poet-friends, Francina Hartstra. Fran has lived many places around the world, including the United States, but I think I remember that she is from, and currently lives in,The Netherlands.
She has a very nice website of her own which features both her poetry and her photography. Visit it at http://seasonspoetry.wordpress.com.
On Midsummer's Night
on midsummer’s night a swim under starlit sky scent of moonflowers fragrant rein-orchids in meadows near delta blues one way ferry ride whispering whirlpool around crib in summer bed sound of beacon bell stroll down waterfront one last glance at Milky Way before turning in beauty of Dal Lake pale hands place a white iris on blue lapping waves above mountain peaks eagles soar in search for prey in sun drenched valley dancers form circle two-stepping silhouettes throw shadows on the grass high on the mountain silver rippling moonlight drifts over tranquil lake Without Regrets Words you used replaced dead dreams, those little make believes could turn impossibility into all what was possible, if not both our doubts had led our love astray, now my path is lost, my soul hides in veils of immense sadness, only pressed to undress when others warm my bed, to escape this loneliness with its utter silence, and to forget, without regret. The Glass Pavilion Coincidence is like the stone which shatters the glass pavilion into a ruin of a thousand pieces. Crystal clear the realization, acceptance of the known; unprotected in translucent light- the truth lies naked. Revealed in the mirrored fragments, still the fragile flower of love. Night Travelers We don’t know each other’s name you, the one with sky blue eyes and I, travelling together in a dream, until time was there we board a train bound on its way to abandoned cities, where you can’t stay and I’ve to leave, there is no beginning, there is no end when you are lost and I’m to be found, in the darkness before the dawn. On A Day Like Today On a day like today when reeds whisper, ripples crack mirrors of creeks- and all trees sigh. Disturbed, birds take flight leaving behind their cries against a leaden sky. There are no words that belong to wind’s song, only whispers on a day like today. On Long Summer Nights On long warm summer nights she sits outside in her garden, gazing at the moonlit hills, her eyes are soft with love, even though there is a hole where her heart once was, before she felt blown apart like a dandelion in the wind. Every year the wildflowers bloom in wind-blown grasses on the hills, every year she sits outside and waits.

This is an old poem, from 2003. Many years before that I did work that occasionally required me to talk down very angry people. Usually they were mad at a system that they thought had cheated or mis-treated them. Some had good reason to be angry, some not, but since I represented the system, I was the target of their anger.
Some of the people were just angry. Those people were usually easy to deal with. Mostly they just wanted someone to listen to their complaint and actually pay attention to what they were saying. I was good at that.
Others were more of a problem, to the point of being scary. With experience, you can begin to see the danger in their eyes, bombs waiting to explode. Those were the hard ones. The bombs would stay, but if you were very careful, you could defuse them, at least for a while. I was good at that too.
But the cold fire behind their eyes - you don't forget that.
the line between dark and light
I've looked into the eyes of the irretrievably mad, seen the red veil of rage straining against the tattered leash of consequence
there is a thin line between them and people like you and me, like the instant under the setting sun when the transition from day to night is passed and light becomes dark, the moment when night animals know to creep from their dens, the moment when night birds shriek and leave their nests to hunt in the dark
I have walked close to that line and felt the fire on the other side - I have seen that flame in another's eyes and fought the madness in my own

Next, three poems written by Charles Bukowsk1 as he could see the end of his life approaching. The poems are from The Flash of Lightning Behind the Mountain,published in 2004 by HarperCollins.
A Bukowski very from the rough and tumble "Hank" we usually associate with his name.
nothing here
so much of my early life I was worried about paying the rent, now something else is trying to move me out of here,permanently, and this landlord will accept no excuses such as "I'll pay you next week for sure!" notice has been served on me and my final eviction looms. but as in the old days, I continue, go through the motions, read the newspaper, stare at the walls and wonder,wonder how did it ever come to this, this senselessness staring me down. all my books don't help my poems don't help either. nothing or nobody helps. it's just me alone, breathing, pondering. there's nothing even to be brave about. there's nothing here at all.
my last winter
I see this final storm as nothing very serious in the sight of the world: there are so many more important things to worry about and to consider.
I see this final storm as nothing very special in the sight of the world and it shouldn't be thought of as special. other storms have been much greater, more dramatic. I see this final storm approaching and calmly my mind awaits.
I see this final storm as nothing very serious in the sight of the world. the world and I have seldom agreed on most matters but now we can agree so bring it on, bring on this final storm. I have patiently waited for too long now.
first poem back
64 days and nights in that place, chemotherapy, antibiotics, blood running into the catheter. leukemia. who, me? at age 72 I had this foolish thought that I'd just die peacefully in my sleep but the gods want it their way. I sit at this machine, shattered, half alive, still seeking the Muse, but I am back for the moment only; while nothing seems the same. I am not reborn, only chasing a few more days, a few more nights, like this one.

A little bit of winter blows in from West Texas,and I like it.
about these cold winds that blow
I was sitting outside last night in my lawn chair, about nine thirty, two hours past sundown, all blanketed up, planning to enjoy the on-rush of the cold front that was on-rushing in, trees swoosh-dancing, dingle-dangles hanging from the eaves dang-dingling, wind damn-cold-blowing at fifty degrees and forty miles an hour right up under my blanket, near freezing my tallulahs, not to mention old satchmo and I gave it up and went inside and satisfied myself with just listening to the wind, tallulahs and old satchmo safe and warm…
but it did set me to thinking about women wearing dresses in the winter and even though bereft as they are of tallulahs or even old satchmo, they must be doing some freezing when that old north wind whips up their dresses like a teenage boyfriend beer-drunk on prom night…
and I’m thinking that surely explains a lot about how women get when the weather gets all cold and blowsey and leaves me with a whole new attitude of respect for women and the challenges of their gender…
and I guess that also applies to the Scots, maybe even more since their skirts are so short winter spring summer and fall
their tallulahs and satchmos must be wonders to behold…
just guessing, of course

Here are three poems by Grace Paley from her book, Leaning Forward. The book was published in 1985 by Granite Press of Penobscot, Maine. You probably don't need to know the publisher is from Penobscot, but I like to write it, thinking how it would feel in my mouth it I were to say it.
Paley, who died in 2007, was born in 1922 and lived most of her life in New York City. She taught at Sarah Lawrence and City College. She called herself a combative pacifist and a cooperative anarchist and was active in anti-war and feminist causes.
having Arrived by Bike at Battery Park
I thought I would sit down at one of those park department tables and write a poem honoring the occasion which is May 25th Evelyn my best friend's birthday and Will Lanbauer's birth
Day! I love you for your delicacy in appearing after so many years as an afternoon in Battery Park right on the curved water where Manhattan was breached
At once arrows straight as Broadway were driven into the great Indian heart
Then we came from the east seasick and safe the white tormented people grew fat in the blood of that wound
My Father at 89
His brain simplified itself saddening everyone but he asked us children don't you remember my dog Mars who met me on the road when I came home lonesome and singing walking from the Czar's prison
On the Subway Station
The child is speaking to the father he is looking into the father's eyes father doesn't answer child is speaking Vietnamese father doesn't answer The father is staring at a mosaic in blue and green and lavender three small ships in harbor set again and again in the white tiled beautiful old unrenovated subway station Clark Street Brooklyn

One must always seek means to accommodate the environment.
the escaping-heat-through-the-top-of-your-head theory
forty degrees this early morning and I’m wearing my hat cause I was told once that about seventy percent of your body heat escapes through the top of your head and if you wear a hat in the winter you’ll stay much warmer…
it was a bald old guy who told me that, a really bald guy not a hair on his head, bald as big old Enchanted Rock up north of here in the hills, huge granite mountain, not a bush or a tree or any green thing taller than lichen on it, that’s how bald this guy was except he didn’t even have any lichen…
the fellow worked for me and I always kidded him about his hat a floppy old thing, and he told me about the escaping-heat-through-the-top-of-your-head theory and I didn’t pay much attention to it, thinking he was just covering up some kind of sentimental attachment to the hat about which he was not entirely comfortable, thrice divorced, I figured it was something given to him by his favorite ex-wife, or maybe her divorce lawyer, so I quit kidding him about his hat because I began to see that it was a delicate subject…
and didn’t think any more about it until I begin to develop a bald spot of my own and decided to test the theory and it really works - it was forty degrees this early morning and feels at least forty-five or forty-six…
probably could have worn one of my Hawaiian shirts

Next I have a poem by Robert Levy from the anthology North of Wakulla, a collection that concentrates on but is not limited exclusively to poets from the Tallahassee and northern Florida.
The book was published in 1989 by Ashinga Press. At that time Levy had published a chapbook and a full-length collection and had been awarded, in 1988, an NEA Creative Writing Fellowship.
Biology
More "labor" less Oratory," the sign in bio lab urged,but we ignored it, and amid pickled fetuses, pithed frogs - the never-born and half-alive - contrived a courtship. Dogfish. ox eye, urchin, newt:
a witches litany to make me fall in love with you. So much carnage, and yet what I recall most about the dead cat was not its agonized grin or upstretched paws - as though it pressed some suffocating
weight at the instant of death - but how you found it pregnant, a fetal kitten curled like a nutmeat in its womb. You buried it outside your dorm - the lone sad mourner - and left me with the mother cat laid bare,
skin flaps pinned in grotesque crucifixion against the tale. The colored latex pumped into its veins before it died limned the diastole and systole of its life, a heartbeat forever stilled in rubber.
The only thing we never dissected was each other. So, unempirical to the last, we married. Over the years we sliced up each other, with knives, hoping to discover love's origin, as though
it were some small vestigial organ tucked away in the body's recesses. All we found was flesh and blood, and more flesh, until our limbs and bones seemed alien as infants in their jars. Could it have been
different,like that strange girl back in lab who also found a fetus in her cat and wore it as an amulet? Could we have threaded hope around our necks like a charm to remind us that something lasts beyond
love or hate? dogfish, ox,eye, urchin, newt. Add to that marriage. Pinned and writhing, anatomized with our finest tools, it lay there, no animal we knew, its gray heart beating long into the night.

I wrote the next poem in 2004 and used it in my 2005 print book, Seven Beats a Second.
unfinished business
I've reached that point in my life when I begin to understand I will not get out of it alive
and with that, clarity...
you life... my life... it's all about unfinished business
a million years of back-story before us and consequences that linger beyond the last spark of memory of our time, leaving no end to things but that one dark end we struggle so hard to avoid, grand temples of pharmaceutical and metaphysical manipulation built with blood, but all for naught
and even as we fight to change the rules of life and death it's not closure we want but a chance to hang around, a chance to read the story past the limitations of our own small walk-on part

Here's another interesting poet, Annamaria Ferramosca. She was born in Tricase, but lived in Rome where she worked as a nutritional biologist, when this book (she has four) was published. She has also published a number of critical essays and review.
I've take two poems from her book Other Signs, Other Circles, a selection of poems from 1990 to 2009. The book was published by Chelsea Editions in 2009.
It is a bilingual book, Italian, with English translation by Annamaria Crowe Serrano and Riccardo Duranti.
After Rilke's Eighth Elegy
The house has windows to the ocean so as to recall the beginning the ancient vortex, calm, millennial sails returns that turn to farewells odysseys bound for other seas
In the garden aleppo pines and olive trees welcome those who know nothing of death:
insects and birds, sometimes nocturnal foxes - motionless - also look out to sea as if mysteriously dazzled - animals never look death in the eye - we live with it by our side, shortsighted see the sky light up with flames and the places where death blindly rains
The rose soon loses its leaves in silence its thorns make ready to pierce our flesh the sea to submerge disorder hugs are mixed with gunshots despite the unease of cicadas swarming in the trees
From the pines, swallows fly south, undaunted
Jemaa El Fna Square
I enter Jemaa el Fna almost stumbling on dry earth re-enacting the delivery of an ancient foetus, my African self My nostrils inhaling earth magic made of instrootsswornbones The amnesia of the distant white tribe,sterilized and mute is already sorcery
The square has eyes that pierce like arrows archaic voices sharp enough to carry on the wind mimed stories like graffiti I am the one who beats the drum stomps her feet flows to the rhythm absorbs the hypnosis of the snake as it rises, supple, tired of repetition staring at me, unbelievably friendly
And it's strange, this urge for dates beyond their taste, a craving for bronzed gold to penetrate my skin (maybe this is how genes mutate under the sun, out of mimetic love of naturegiftsurvival)
Continental forgiveness of the African faces offered with little objects inlaid with pridehopesweat (the sweat condensing everywhere kneaded in the mud, built into houses) That's always been how the earth becomes human
I feel the mother's wrinkles, alive

Let's hear it for the pagans.
pagan holidays
I think the time has come to admit that the poem I’ve been struggling over is boring the crap out of me and is almost certain to bore the crap out of anyone who through some miracle of persistence manages to get past the first five lines -
time to admit It’s time to man the lifeboats and get as far away from that sinking vessel of pretentious crap as my little oars will row me
start over, like in marbles, call “slips” and just start over…
maybe think about Halloween, the pagan holiday that admits to being pagan, unlike those other holidays who hide their pagan roots behind a façade of more recent religions hidden in turn by the most modern religion of all, consumption and greed
(and there I go again, threatening signs of pending pontification - who cares about a poor poet’s bemoaning consumption and greed when we all know that if the poor poet was a rich poet he’d go out and buy a 64 inch plasma TV and a Lexus just like everyone else)
the point is that Halloween is the one holiday we celebrate that has resisted complete infantilization - sure, we say it’s all about the kids and dress them up in cute costumes and send them out to beg food from neighbors, but we know better - we know that it’s really about office parties and Laverne in Accounting and her sexy Batwoman costume, low-cut on top and high-cut on the bottom, and we know that before the week is out, there’ll be Xerox copies of Laverne’s butt circulating the office and why the heck not - there’s a pagan in all of us, aching for release, and if we can’t dance naked under an orange harvest moon, maybe Laverne’s Xeroxed butt will give us the break we need until next year when, maybe, Laverne will dance naked with us under an orange harvest moon
that’s the thing about pagan holidays and why we love them…
they give us hope that someday grown-ups will be back in charge of the world and paganism will be back to re-assert the presumptions of a free human spirit

This is a poem by Brigit Pegeen Kelly, from her book, Song, the 1994 Lamont Poetry Selection of The Academy of American Poets published by BOA Editions Ltd.
Kelly, born in Palo Alto,California, in 1951, teaches in the creative writing program at the University of Illinois at Urbana-Champaign and in the Warren Wilson M.F.A. program for writers. She has received many awards and honors, including a fellowship from the National Endowment for the Arts.
Wild Turkeys: The Dignity of the Damned
Because they are shame, and cannot flee from it. And cannot hide it, they go slow, One great variegated male and his harem of four wild hens
Halting our truck as they labor To cross the road into the low fields they are indentured to. They go slow, their hearts hardened to this;
Those laughingstock, shriveled, lipstick red hearts - Swinging on throat and foreneck Beneath the narrow heads that are the blue
Not of the sky but of convicts shaved skulls - Have been long indurated by rains and winds and filth And the merciless exposures of the sun.
They do not look up, they do not fly - Except at night when dark descends like shame, When shame is lost to dark, and then,
Weak-winged, they heave themselves Into the low tree roosts they drop from in the morning, Crashing like swag-bellied bombers
Into the bare fields and stingy stands of trees They peck their stones and seeds from. Yesterday they were targets, but now they go slow,
As if this lacuna between winter and spring, still gray, But full of the furred sumacs' pubescent probings, And the faint oily smell of wild onion vials crushed open,
Gave hope to even them, or as if they knew All seasons come to one, the going back, The crossing over, the standing still, all the same,
When the state you defend is a lost state, When lurching into an ungainly run Only reminds you that there is nowhere to run to.
And this movement, this jerking Of these heavy goffered carapaces forward, This dumb parading that looks at first glance furtive,
Like skulking, the hunkered shoulders, the lowered heads, Reveals, as we watch, the dignity that lines Of pilgrim-sick possess as they halt toward some dark grotto -
A faith beyond the last desire to possess faith, The soldier's resolve to march humpbacked straight into death Until it breaks like oil over him
And over all that is lost.

Here, a tiny, tiny poem as I try once again to channel the clear-seeing eye of William Carlos Williams, my favorite poet, second only to Walt Whitman.
yellow flowers
the vine will grow cover the broken swing with yellow so very yellow flowers

Next, two poems by David St. John, from his book Study for the World's Body. The book was published in 1994 by HarperCollins.
St. John has received many awards and honors, including fellowships and grants. He has taught creative writing at Oberline College, The John Hopkins University, and the University of Southern California. For twelve years he was poetry editor of The Antioch Review.
Guitar
I have always loved the word guitar
I have no memories of my father on the patio At dusk, strumming a Spanish tune, Or my mother draped in the fawn wicker chair Polishing her flute; I have no memories of your song, distant Sister Heart, of those steel strings sliding All night through the speaker of the car radio Between Tucumcari and Oklahoma City, Oklahoma. Though I've never believed those stories Of gypsy cascades, stolen horses, castanets, And stars, of Airstream trailers and good fortune, Though I never met Charlie Christian,though I've danced the floors of cold longshoremen's halls, Though I've waited with overcoats at the read Of concerts for lute, mandolin, and two guitars - More than the music I love scaling its woven Stairways, more than the swirling chocolate of wood
I've always loved the word guitar.
Hush
for my son
The way a tired Chippewa woman Who's lost a child gathers up black feathers, Black quills and leaves That she wraps & swaddles in a little bale, a shag Cocoon she carries with her & speaks to always As if it were her child, Until she knows the soul has grown fat & clever, That the child can find its own way at last; Well, I go everywhere Picking the dust out of the dust, scraping the breezes Up off the floor, & gather them into a doll Of you, to touch at the nape of the neck, to slip Under my shirt like a rag - the way Another man's wallet rides above his heart. As you Cry out, as if calling to a father you conjure In the paling light, the voice rises, instead, in me. Nothing stops it, the crying. Not the clove of the moon, Not the woman raking my back with her words. Our letters Close. Sometimes, you ask About the world; sometimes, I answer back. Nights Return you to me for a while, as sleep returns sleep To a landscape ravaged & familiar. The dark watermark of your absence, a hush.
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I just don't get it.
occupy time: a protest from the chronologically confused crowd
so here it is Halloween, again, and it seems I just put the candy up from last year, and now Thanksgiving is next week and Christmas the week after and I just can’t keep track, can’t keep up,
it’s like days mosey on by like cowboys on the open range, getting along their little dogies at a leisurely 4-4 time cowboy singing pace, while years gallop like Sitting Bull is half an arrow-length behind, it seems, one day, I’m forty-five, prime-time, prime-cut, prime of most everything, then swish and swoosh and I’m sixty, then sixty-five, then sixty eight in a couple of months. and, common refrain among the chronologically confuse crowd, what happened - what happened, we cry out, for-crying-out-loud what the hell happened, from golden youth to shuffling senility coming round the corner here it comes, all in the course of an afternoon nap - my mistake, assuming time passed in stately procession, equally, awake or asleep, when every other fool knows that time passes much faster when we’re asleep, the quantum snooze-factor kicking in, leaving us 16 hours time-depleted for every 8 hours slept…
my life whisked away in sleep like with one of those little whisk brooms we used to use to whisk out our car seats back before vacuums were invented, my god, wasn’t that just last week, how quickly technology overtakes, overtakers, all this technology until the undertakers undertake to take us under and I’m not ready so I’ll just not sleep, add years to my life, like tenth grade algebra in reverse…
in the meantime, can anyone tell me when the fall time fallback thing happens, I remember it happening but am not sure if I’m remembering this year or last year - if I could just nail this one thing down, I could probably make my peace with all the rest, and be back with you tomorrow except I’m not always sure about the tomorrow thing because I remember someone telling me yesterday was tomorrow and then they told me yesterday that today was tomorrow so maybe I should plan to be back yesterday or the day before
or maybe next or last month

For my last library-poems this week, I have several poets from the Winter-1977 issue of the Berkeley Poetry Review. The Review doesn't include bios for any of it's contributors (I hate that), but, since it's late in the afternoon and I'm tired, neither will I. I'll just let you do your own Google search.
The first poet is Vickie Hearne.
A Technical Qeustion for a Daughter
I don't know where you get it,this Growing you do, did you go out Of the house alone, down to the Pasture to learn the way the pouts
And dancing of the young fillies Set them on their legs? It is clear You mean something by it, as when Earlier I thrust my hands near
And then into your folds of flesh And, infant weak and pure, you thrust Them away, never even once Granting that you were what I must
Clean and tend. Where did you get this Lusting for all this competence, Skills you from the start had a plan For? I should have deduced the fence
From the growing piles of rails but They made a plausible enough Pile of rails, and I thought about The sure way they towered, a tough
Problem in itself. You added Speech and began to know how sleep May be lost and wooed, then one day There you were, setting rails in deep
Potholes you had dug by yourself, The laws of form draw us taller, Slowly, and set us in our own Universe, we say, knot smaller
By and inch than we grow to be.
The next poet is James Story
The Morning Climb
They do not know that I am watching, suited men and summered ladies, Plumbing the slow elevator's climb. I time their smiles to my calibration.
I have seen duller elevators that this, And deadlier. As if life sucked dry By the morning could not make it Past the fifteenth floor.
Today the small chat drops delicate down To the sandalled floor and makes me dream Of beaches. Their beaches. Fire Island. The Hamptons. The Jersey Shore. They Talk of their weekends as tall cool lime-drinks To be savored slowly.
The bones in my ear envy That clink of ice; refuse, However, to hear.
And, last this week, the poet Karen Swenson.
Spring
In a country graveyard where like a disorder of books stones shoulder angles heaved by frost I sit in the car
among the broken spines of closed stories having traveled up country in search of a blessing away from the city's clank of radiator warmth.
Across the road the fields seeded by winter furrowed by snow lie cold in their sky crop.
As cars whip by the early wasps the sun leaning through the windshield curls into my lap like a kitten content in its own warmth.

It's like everything else - some days it works, and some days you just have to punt.
the elusive poetry/fine-poetry writing experience
I’m stalling…
it’s time to write a poem and I’m finding all kinds of reasons to avoid it.
my favorite breakfast-poem writing-observation post filled up early this morning, cool sunny weather pulling people out of churches and sending them off for early break fast like a magnetizing, flypapering, duckluring, moosecalling, irresitable, un deniable force calling people to skip God’s word to take in some of his/her/its sunshine instead
(normally, I would consider this a good thing, but not when they force me out of my favorite breakfast-poem writing- observation post restaurant)
but anyway I couldn’t write my poem there, being forced out into the cold by all the Sunday morning God-'s-Word-shirkers…
so I went to my back-up poem writing, observation post, but the sun, bright and warm and intrusive, is shining right on my face and on my laptop screen so that all I can see through sun-squinty eyes is my own sun- squinty face on my laptop screen and beside that, some bozo whack-o people are two tables behind me watching some kind of jet plane flying thing on their laptop, complete with jet noise as if I was standing mid-runway and the San Antonio International Airport and who the hell can be expected to write a poem in the midst of sun-shining, sun- squinting, jet-landing-taking-off-engine- roaring-flying stuff going in sacred poem- writing territory…
and time’s running out because I have to meet Dee at Barnes and Noble when they open up in just a few minute and before that I have to go to the carwash and see how much of the wreck I had last week washes off before I decide to or not to bring the good hands of my insurance company into the mix and I also need to go to the grocery store to buy some sushi for lunch and Alpo for my dog and pick up some money at the ATM…
and damn the sun’s gone behind a cloud and I can see my unsquinty face in my laptop screen and the Jetson previously behind me have left and I can see the blue sky outside and the oriental woman chewing her bagel at the next table (the oriental woman being at the next table chewing, not the oriental woman at one table, chewing at another table which might be mis-surmised if my original statement were read literally and which, as a man of the word, I thought I ought to correct)…
and all is set for some fine poetry-writing, maybe even set for some time for writing fine-poetry, but, hell, now I’m out of time and will just have to put off the poetry/fine-poetry writing until tomorrow when I’m sure conditions will be more conducive for a poetry/fine-poetry writing experience

Here we are at the end of another post and I'm exceedingly proud of myself, having not referred, even once, to my new book "Always to the Light" due out in a week or two, nor have I mentioned,even once, my other two eBooks, "Pushing Clouds Against the Wind" and "Goes Around, Comes Around" both also available at all the standard eBook purveyors. I guess it's too late to do that now, so I'll wait until next week to engage in my shameless promotion.
And you'll recall, of course, even though I haven't mentioned it in a couple of weeks, that all of the material presented here remains the property of those who created it, and, being creator of my particular stuff, I make it available to any who what, with proper credit, of course, to "Here and Now" and me.
I'm allen itz, owner and producer of this blog and the weather is great here and I'm going to go out and sit in it until next week.
Finally, a note on the mechanics of "Here and Now" production.
I do my own typing, which I'm pretty good, but not great at. And I do my own proofing, which I am very bad at. Added to that problem is the insistence of my computer to do automatic corrections, producing and inserting in the process, words that make no sense at all in the text, or, even worse, producing and inserting words that almost make sense but seem weird.
As so as I figure out how, I'm going to fix that. In the meantime, know that all weirdness that sometimes appears in my text was not necessarily put there by me.
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High, Wide, and Handsome Friday, October 07, 2011
I needed the break to happy to be back again, after a super 10-day visit to the mountains in New Mexico and Colorado. My photos and my poems (most of them) were taken or written on the road.
I also have my usual quota of great poets from my library and a shameless little announcement at the end.
Junkman's Obbligato
Me
eager-eyed
Marina Tsvetaeva
From Poem of the End
Me
San Antonio to Carlsbad
Rosemary Catacalos
With the Conchero Dancers, Mission Espada, July
The Lesson in "A Waltz for Debbie" “
One Man’s Family
Me
Carlsbad to Santa Fe
Sundeep Sen
Shattered Pieces of a Quarrel
Sun Streaks on Telephone Lines
Me
a morning in Santa Fe
From Poetry - February 1973
Leroy Seale
Turkey Shooting on Mount Monadnoc
Robert Pinsky
Waiting
Me
Santa Fe to Durango
Aaron Silverberg
Morning Aikido
Prosperity
Me
day trip to Ouray
From Poetry - February, 1973
Michael McGee
The Hand
Lynn Strongin
Countdown
Me
day trip to Telluride
Gary Soto
A Simple Plan
Me
a day off in Durango
e.e. cummings
From Love Poems
X
XI
Me
homebound, Durango to Albuquerque
Monica Youn
Ignatz in August
Ignatz Oasis
Semper Ignatz
The Death of Ignatz
The Subject Ignatz
Invisible Ignatz
Me
homebound, Albuquerque to Fort Stockton
Mary Crow
Montserrate
Me
last leg home, Fort Stockton to San Antonio
Bruce Weigl
Black-and-Tan Dog
Meeting Mr. Death
Me
rainy day confabulations
John Updike
Stretch
TV
Me
path to enlightment
I start this post with a poem by Lawrence Ferlinghetti, from his book A Cony Island of the Mind, A New Directions book, originally published in 1955. As I mentioned before, I had a copy of the book from a seventh printing, which I bought in very early 1960s. During the course of many years since then, I lost the book I was excited to find a copy, aged yellow pages and all, of that 1958 edition in my secondhand book store. The book originally cost less than $2.00, less than I paid for it at the second-hand book store.
With eBooks, we can finally match that price again today, and maybe move reading poetry back outside of the academic circles where it's been stuck for years.
The poem I borrow this week is one of Ferlinghetti's best know pieces, and one of seven in the book conceived, not for the page, but performance reading with jazz accompaniment, subject to change at every reading. If you can find it anywhere, a performance of the poem by the poet in a reading with Kenneth Rexroth and the Cellar Jazz Quintet was recorded by Fantasy as "Poetry Readings in the Cellar."
Not having that recording, this is the paper-bound best I can do.
Junkman's Obbligato
Let's go
Come on
Let's go
Empty out our pockets
and disappear.
Missing all our appointments
and turning up unshaven
years later
old cigarette papers
stuck to our pants
leaves in our hair.
Let us not
worry about the payments
anymore.
Let them come
and take it away
whatever it was
we were paying for.
And us with it.
Let us arise and go now
to where dogs do it
Over the hill
where they keep the earthquakes
behind the city dumps
lost among gas mains and garbage.
Let us see the City Dumps
for what they are.
My country tears of thee.
Let us disappear
in automobile graveyards
and reappear years later
picking rags and newspapers
drying our drawers
on garage fires
patches on our ass.
Do not bother
to say goodbye
to anyone
Your missus will not miss us.
Let's go
smelling of sterno where the benches are filled
with discarded Bowling Green statues
in the interior dark night
of the flowery bowery
our eyes watery
with the contemplation
of empty bottles of muscatel.
Let us recite from broken bibles
on streetcorners
Follow dogs on docks
Speak wild songs
Throw stones
Say anything
Blink at the sun and stretch
and stumble into silence
Diddle in doorways
Know whores thirdhand
after everyone else is finished
Stagger befuddled into East River sunsets
Sleep in phone booths
Puke in pawnshops
wailing for a winter overcoat.
Let us arise and go now
under the city
where ashcans roll
and reappear in putrid clothes
as the uncrowned underground kings
off subway men's rooms.
Let us feed the pigeons
at City Hall
urging them to do their duty
in the Mayor's office.
Hurry up please it's time.
The end is coming.
Flash floods
Disasters in the sun
Dogs unleased
Sister in the street
her brassiere backwards.
Let us arise and go now
into the interior dark night
of the soul's still bowery
and find ourselves anew
where subways stall and wait
under the River.
Cross over
into full puzzlement.
South Ferry will not run forever.
They are cutting out the Bay ferries
but it is still not too late
to get lost in Oakland.
Washington has not yet toppled
from his horse.
There is still time to goose him
and go
leaving our income tax form behind
and our waterproof wristwatch with it
staggering blind after allycats
under Brooklyn's Bridge
blown statues in baggy pants
our tincan cries and garage voices
trailing.
Junk for sale!
Let's cut out let's go
into the real interior of the country
where hockshops reign
mere unblinding anarchy upon us.
The end is here
but golf goes on at Burning Tree.
It's raining it's pouring
The Ole Man is snoring.
Another flood is coming
though not the kind you think.
There is still time to sink
and think.
I wish to descend in society.
I wish to make it free.
Swing low sweet chariot.
Let us not wait for the cadillacs
to carry us triumphant
into the interior
waving at the natives
like roman senators in the provinces
wearing poet's laurels
on lighted brows.
Let us not wait for the write-up
on page one
of The New York times Book Review
images of insane success
smiling from the photo.
By the time they print your picture
in Life Magazine
you will have become a negative anyway
a print with a glossy finish.
They will have come and gotten you
to be famous
and you still will not be free.
Goodbye I'm going.
I'm selling everything
and giving away the rest
to the Good Will Industries.
It will be dark out there
with the Salvation Army Band.
And the mind its own illumination.
Goodbye I'm walking out of the whole scene.
Close down the joint.
The system is all loused up.
Rome was never like this.
I'm tired of waiting for Godot.
I am going where turtles win
I am going
where conmen puke and die
Down the sad esplanades
of the official world.
Junk for sale!
My country tears of thee.
Let us go then you and I
leaving our neckties behind on lampposts
Take up the full beard
of walking anarchy
looking like Walt Whitman
a homemade bomb in the pocket.
I wish to descend in the social scale.
High society is low society.
I am a social climber
climbing downward
and the decent is difficult.
The Upper Middle Class Ideal
is for the birds
and the birds have no use for it
having their own kind of pecking order
based upon birdsong.
Pigeons on the grass alas.
Let us arise and go now
to the Isle of Manisfree.
Let loose the hogs of peace.
Hurry up please it's time.
Let us arise and go now
into the interior
of Foster's Cafeteria.
So long Emily Post.
So long
Lowell Thomas.
Goodbye Broadway
Goodbye Herald Square.
Turn it off.
Confound the system.
Cancel all our leases.
Lose the War
without killing someone.
Let horses scream
and ladies run
to flushless powderrooms.
The end has just begun.
I want to announce it.
Run don't walk
to the nearest exit.
The real earthquake is coming.
I can feel the building shake.
I am the refined type.
I cannot stand it.
I am going
where asses lie down
with customs collectors who call themselves
literary critics.
My tool is dusty.
My body hung up too long
in strange suspenders.
Get me a bright bandana
for a jockstrap.
Turn loose and we'll be off
where sports cars collapse
and the world begins again.
Hurry up please it's time.
It's time and a half
and there's the rub.
the thinkpad makes homeboys of us all.
Let us cut out
into stray eternity.
Somewhere the land is swinging.
My country 'tis of thee
I'm singing.
Let us arise and go now
to the Isle of Manisfree
and live the true blue simple life
of wisdom and wonderment
where all things grow
straight up
aslant and singing
in the yellow sun
poppies out of cowpods
thinking angels out of turds.
I mus arise and go now
to the Isle of Manisfree
way up behind the broken words
and woods o Arcady.
Our journey began the day before.
eager-eyed
breakfast done,
newspaper read, headlines
and comics only, having discerned
some years ago
that everything you really need
to know in the world
can be found in the comic pages -
headline-reading, only habit and patriotic duty
to confirm that everything that’s been
happening is still happening,
sun still burning.
earth still turning,
clouds still fluffing,
fools still fooling, ball
still rolling, no further attention
from me required…
poem struggling to emerge
from the cocoon
of a morning-dry and entangled
mind - will find its way out of the morass,
one way or another,
love child or circus freak, a
chance taken every day, like flipping a coin,
what it will be, what it has no choice
but to be on this near 25,000th day of my
life -
I will wait…
in the meantime,
today,
I take our Queen Reba
to Austin to visit our son
for ten days, while Dee and I
venture,
beginning tomorrow,
to parts not entirely known,
mountains,
but which and where
to be determined by the most
promising horizons that
approach us -
two to fhree thousand miles,
not certain I have the
stamina
for that kind of drive anymore, that and
ten nights in hotel rooms,
but I know it is time to get away
from these low hills for a while,
to find a vista requiring
a greater arching of neck,
a longer view,
to see where the road meets
the sky…
**
my last stationary poem for a while,
beginning tomorrow,
ten days of poems written to the hum
of asphalt,
the cool of thin mountain air,
the evergreen scent of forests -
pictures of the beautiful and the absurd,
seen as we pass, eager-eyed.
Next,I have several exerpts from a long narrative poem by Marina Tsvetaeva. The poems are from Poem of the End, Selected Narrative and Lyrical Poems, published in 2004 by Ardis Publishers.
It is a bilingual book, Russian and English, with translation by Nina Kossman
Tsvetaeva, born in Moscow in 1892, published her first volume of poetry in 1910, attracting notice from some of the most important critics an poets in Russia at the time. Following the revolution, she went into exile in Paris in 1922, becoming one of the leading writers of the emigre community. After she returned to Russia in 1939, her husband was arrested and subsequently executed. She committed suicide in 1941 in Elabuga, a small town to which she had been dispatched at the onset of World War II.
From Poem of the End
1
In the sky, rustier than tin,
Is a lamppost like a finger
He rose at the appointed place,
Like fate.
"Quarter to. Have I kept you...?"
"Death can't wait."
exaggeratedly smooth,
The doffing of his hat.
In every eyelash, a challenge.
The mouth, contorted.
Exaggeratedly low,
His bow.
"Quarter to." "On the dot?"
His voice lied.
My heart - fell.(What's with him?)
My brain: a signal.
______
Sky of bad omens.
Rust and tin.
He waited at the usual spot.
Six o'clock.
This soundless kiss:
the stupor of the lips.
Thus - empresses' hands are kissed,
Thus - dead men's hands...
A hurrying laborer
Elbows my side.
Exaggeratedly dull,
The train-whistled howled.
Howled - yelped like a dog.
On and on, angrily.
(The exaggeration of life,
In the final hour.)
What yesterday was waist-high,
Suddenly reaches the stars.
(Exaggerated, that is:
To its full height.)
Thinking: darling, darling.
"The time?" "Seven."
"To the movies,or?"
(Exclaiming) "Home!"
2
Gypsy brotherhood -
This is where it led!
Like thunder on the head,
Or a naked blade,
All the terror
Of anticipated words,
Of a house collapsing,
That word: home.
______
A lost spoiled child
Wailing: Home!
A one-year-old:
"Give me! Mine!"
My brother in sin,
My fever and fervor.
They dram of running away
The way you dream of home.
______
Like a horse jerking at its tether -
Up! - and the ropes in shreds.
"But we have no home!"
"Ah,but we do. Ten paces away.
The house on the mountain. "Not higher up?"
"The house on the top of the mountain,
The window under the roof."
"Burning not only with the light
Of dawn?" "So we start over again?"
"The simplicity of poems!"
Home means: out o the house
And into the night.
(Oh, whom shall I tell
My sorrow, my grief,
Horror,greener than ice?...)
"You've been thinking to much."
Pensively: "Yes."
3
The embankment.I keep to the water -
A dense thickness
The hanging gardens of Semiramis,
There they are!
The water - a steely strip of it,
Deathly pale.
I stay with it like a singer
Sticks to the score; like a blind-man
Sticks to the edge of a wall...You won't turn me back?I stay with it, the quencher of all thirsts,
Like a sleepwalker sticks to the edge
Of a roof...
Oh, but it's not the water
That makes me shiver - I was born a naiad.
to hold onto the river, like holding hands
When your lover's here
And faithful.
The dead are faithful.
Yes, but not all in the same casket...
On my left side, death; on my right -
You. My right side seems dead.
A vivid sheaf of light.
Laughter, like a toy tambourine.
"We need to have a..."
(shivering).
"Will we be brave?"
Our first travel day took us from San Antonio to Carlsbad, New Mexico.
San Antonio to Carlsbad
Holiday Inn Express,
not where I wanted to stay
but I couldn’t find the hotel
I wanted on the web,
but…
a bed that doesn’t feel like
something liberated from a medieval
Abdizhwanni torture chamber, fluffy towels
and plenty of them, a shower with hot water
and a generous spray that doesn’t require
running around in the shower to get wet
so the day ends
well…
the day began,
as usual,
not as early as I would have liked -
the male person, being me,
in the morning scenario,
wants to leave, vamoose,
hit-the-road- jack, pedal-to-the-medal,
put the get in the get-on-going,
while she who must not be named
in any but the most serious and loving manner
wants
to sweep the kitchen
and do a load of laundry first…
so, as anyone familiar with the history
of domestic contention surely
suspects, we
finally got on the road at ten, after sweeping
and doing a load laundry
^^^
the first leg -
San Antonio to Carlsbad, New Mexico,
a short day, only 398 miles, northwest from home,
neon-green mesquite, yellow huisache,
purple sage,
black creosote brush
spread over rolling limestone hills,
the hills split
for the highway, millions
of years of geologic history on either side as we
pass through the cuts
at 85 miles an hour, time displayed,
from now to that distant past
when all around was covered by a salty sea,
layer upon layer demonstrating
the truth of constant change, the earth
we walk upon with such confidence
is always shifting,
never what it was; never what it will be,
I can only look
and be humbled by my transience…
to the flat pastures and cotton fields
of southern New Mexico,
to the city of the great cavern…
a night’s sleep
before Santa Fe
and the first mountains
I used a poem by Rosemary Catacalos in my last post. I'm going back to her again with several poems from a different book than the one I borrowed from last time.
This time the book is the anthology After Aztlan, Latino Poets of the Nineties, published in 1992 by David R. Godine, Publisher.
Catacalos, winner of the Texas Institute of Letters Prize in Poetry, former recipient of the Dobie Paisano Fellowship, and former director of the Literature Program of the Guadalupe Cultural Arts Center in San Antonio.
The Mission Espada referred to in the first poem is one of five 18th century Spanish missions that line the San Antonio River from Mission San Antonio de Valero (most commonly known as the Alamo) in the center of downtown San Antonio to Mission Espada, last in the string of missions, on the far south side of the city. All the missions provide regular weekly Mass for congregants, many descendants of the original worshipers, as well as weddings and funerals and other religious and cultural activities.
With the Conchero Dancers, Mission Espada, July
There is something in all this. The heat
heavy on us till it might as well be the mesquite
beam the young goat drags to each day's thin
grazing in the courtyard. It might as well be
the babies, fitful in their baskets, in our arms.
Their cries go out alongside the thick smell of copal
burning, as we do, in frail clay vases, Xelina,
who is seven and doesn't know the goat will soon
be meat, wants to touch the beginnings
of its horns, buries her trusting fingers
in the tufts on either side of the mouth.
And there is an old woman in black whose days
are a dark slow vine retreating into memory,
even in full sunlight: the middle son lost in Korea,
the comet-eyed cousin in San Luis Portosi
who loaned her gold earrings and died
in childbirth. Buenos dias, el sol como siempe,
no?. Si,senor, the sun as always.
Celebrating the mass, strangers embrace as though
history were more than it is, resuming their fanning
with the Sunday bulletin. There will bge a jamaica
at Cabrini, a parish council meeting Tuesday.
Something in all of this. In the lightning strings
of the mandolins tuned tense as lovers arching
their backs, the unerring summons of a tree
becoming drum, bare feet hugging limestone, the earth's
bones, plumed crowns flying in light of everything.
This ancient prayer from the high valleys of Mexico,
spinning and spinning for dear life,
this world to be learned by heart.
The Lesson in "A Waltz or Debby"
in memory of Bill Evans
Amazing how this world manages to be all of a piece.
In Beirut an old woman haring guns that are nothing
like drums pulls her apron up over her head
and wrings the air in entreaty. In La Resurrection,
Guatemala, Mayan Indians in bright handmade cloth
are hung in trees with their wrists slit and left
to die slowly, turning like obscene ornaments
or jungle birds. And on a strait named Juan de Fuca
off the coast off Washington state, a stranger
is within peaceful shouting distance of six whales
rising and falling on the water: the usual
and regular breathing of God. All this has everything
to do with how you wrote "Waltz for Debby" when she
she was three and still had a right to believe life
would always come in gentle measures, the swoop and
sweep of a good dream doing what comes naturally.
You knew better but went ahead
anyway. Just as today I balance in sunlight
with my own three-year-old nieces, chambering around
one of Fuller's dreams become a toy, the joyful
geometry of a dome turned into triple-sided air.
Even if Demetra refused to step where her favorite tree
cast shadows and twice wouldn't pronounce
the name of her missing uncle,
suspecting the pain it would bring out in the open.
Later she was sullen with the weight of it. Her swing
would not fly, though she leaned with all her might
and crazily against gravity. I thought how all the waltzes
in the world wouldn't save her from learning this.
The man watching the whales, meanwhile, may
fear that in a few years there won't be whales
on the coast. Men either, for that matter.
But more he remembers your fingers as wingtips.
Your remains, clear notes phased with possibility.
And since jazz musicians mostly work nights, how
you were always finding you way in the dark.
One Man's Family
in memory of Bill Gilmore
There was the Dog Man again today,
bent under his tow sack,
making his daily pilgrimage
along St.Mary's Street
with his rag tied to his forehead,
with his saintly leanness
and his bunch of seven dogs
and his clothes covered with
short smelly hair.
Pauline,the waitress up at
the White House Cafe, says
he used to be a college professor.
In a college. Imagine.
And now he's all the time
with them dogs.
Lets them sleep in the same room
with him. Lets them eat
the same thing he eats.
Pauline don't like it.
All them eyes that light up in the dark
like wolves'.
I imagine he carries his mother's
wedding dress around in that filthy sack.
I imagine he takes the dress out on Sundays
and talks to it about the dogs
the way he might talk to Pauline
if she ever gave him the chance.
About how to him those seven dogs
are seven faithful wives,
seven loaves,seven brothers.
About how those seven snouts bulldozing
through neighborhood garbage and memories
give off a warmth that's just as good
as all the breasts and apple pies and Christmas trees
and books and pipes and slippers
that a man could use on this earth.
But mostly about how they're dogs.
Friends that don't have to be anything else.
About how nothing could be more right
than for a man to live
with what he is willing and able to trust.
Our second day took us to Santa Fe.
Carlsbad to Santa Fe
leaving behind
Carlsbad
and the rough scrub flatlands
of southern New Mexico, we enter
a topography of rolling hills, slowly climbing
toward the Rockies to the north,
the hills, covered by short yellow grass,
become broader and higher as we drive on
toward Santa Fe - mountains shadow
the horizon to the north and to the west…
cattle walk single-file on the crest of a higher
hill, black forms against the blue, cloudless
sky, an orderly line, like a military platoon, led
to feed by the boss-cow, one in every herd,
who knows where to go and when to go there
below that disciplined line,
an unruly rush by calves and big mama bossies,
running to catch up with a truck
crossing the pasture, loaded with hay,
the God-Truck, bringing
afternoon vittles
for its bovine charges,
manna from
the bed of a Ford pick-up…
then Vaughn,
small town among the wide, rolling
hills, a diner,
like an old-fashioned city diner
built around a retired railroad dining car -
great music from the fifties,
and a really lousy hamburger…
past Vaughn,
past Encino, the hills roll on,
ground beneath the low grass, now pumpkin
powder orange, shining in the sun, slipping,
as we pass on to a light rose color while the mountains
become near companions
on either side…
until we are there - the near edge of Santa Fe
according to my GPS, but
it doesn’t look like “there” - high, rough, tree-covered
hills, steep, deep canyons, even as the GPS tells us
we are close, and even as I am a disbeliever,
we follow directions,
left turn, right turn, left turn, the road
getting smaller and rougher, asphalt to washboard gravel,
narrower and narrower as we climb steeper and steeper
slopes - until directly ahead of us, a gate
to a private drive,
and on the gate, a yellow sign with a simple
and direct message - “you are not where you
think you are,” the sign says, suggesting
we are not the first misled by our GPS…
a strategic retreat…
back to where we figure we ought to be,
and, our instincts proving better
than our GPS, finally, eight miles from the sign
on the gate, our hotel in the immediate
downtown crush of narrow Spanish-laid streets,
three blocks from the central plaza,
within walking distance of all the places
we want to see in the two days we expect
to stay here -
here, among the tourists crowding
sidewalks in every direction -
(what I always wonder when myself a tourist
in a place of many tourists,
are we really as funny looking, I think,
as these people crowding all around us)
dinner at six, seven our time,
$80 for two,
great grub,
but,
I’ll never get fat
at $80 a pop, contrary
to the usual description of travel
as broadening…)
Next, I have two poems from the collection Postmarked India, by Sundeep Sen. The book was published by HarperCollins India in 1997.
I've included Sen's work many times on "Here and Now," complete with biography. Since I'm a little pressed for time this week, I'll let readers do their own Google search.
Scattered Pieces of a Quarrel
we listen while a dustpan eats
the scattered pieces of a quarrel.
Vern Rutsala
Every night, for many years now I hear voices next door
through the thing of the wall, every core
of the crackling scream, like an old
stylus needle on a scratched gramophone record,
stuck. Every night it happens, shriller and fiercer
every night. At midnight, the ritual starts over:
the first conversations barely audible,
then the decibel levels, a plateau of maimed muffles
before taking off sharply, into the crystal
air of coded cries, on a steep delirious climb until
breaking glass-ware scatter smithereens
as the soprano of anguish startles a bluebird in
nest outside, on the terracotta ledge
of my alcove. Every morning when the sun's edge
clears the neighbour's roof, I sweep the apartment floor
trying o extricate rolls off dust from under the doors.
They somehow seem to huddle in fluffy balls
insulating the crevices between adjacent flats, the same wall
that simultaneously separates and shares, just like the array
of dust coils clinging together, in fear of being swept away.
Sun Streaks on Telephone Lines
In Japanese she said it was amae,
though the translation provided only a weak
dependency. The telephone rang all night, the next day,
and on and on for a whole year, in
metaphoric exchanges as the pulse
matched the tones. Tones of a new language
defied the stasis of the existing ones.
Even the sun's power couldn't scorch the linkage,
its rays streaking into a Brooklyn apartment, to cast
the bleach, roasting the innards, and a human being.
The same sun in the evening spread over the vast
view: over blackened roof-tops and the rippled bay,
its light tinting the metallic verdure of the Statue
of Liberty, the geometric axes of lower Manhattan towers,
and the silver criss-cross of telephone lines. On cue
the calls came through, regardless, from another
island, the lines humming, "ame, amae, amae."
Amae it had to be, after all, telephones work only on the
dependency of their senders and receivers, or else
why would such lines exist. The
sun had set long over the East River peninsula.
but had left enough energy stored, in excess,
for the unfinished conversation to carry on, with her,
undeterred, in glinting solar pulses.
Although we had passed through Santa Fe a number of times, but had never spent any significant time there. So, for the third day, we decided to stay in Santa Fe.
a morning in Santa Fe
walking around the plaza
at six a.m.
in the downtown
were nothing opens before eight,
cool,
quiet, no one out but me
and an old lady,
looking , like me, for first light,
pictures to be taken
as the sun turns the night
sky glowing pale
light…
Starbucks!
the mythical Starbucks,
a known entity,
but lost on an inadequate
map, like black planet
in a black galaxy
on the other side of the moon,
there,
in front of me, a half a block
from where my walk ended yesterday…
latte
and a Times,
sharing a long table
with the Indian vendors who spread their jewelry
on blankets around the plaza…
seven a.m. -
the vendors leave to lay out their
wares
and the first dim morning light
softens the night-shadows
creeping back into
the corners
and a crow, flies,
like the closing night's own dark devil,
lands among the towers of the Lorretto Chapel,
cries, it's guttural hacking call
echoing, bouncing from adobe wall
to adobe wall in the high thin air…
at eight,
the bells from the three missions
near the square
begin to toll, bring in the morning,
open the day
for
hiking from gallery to gallery,
up hills, down hills,
reminding
by noon that, as to the condition
of my knees and hips,
things just ain’t what they used
to be
Here are two poets from the February, 1973 issue of Poetry.
The first poet is Leroy Searle, in 1973, an assistant professor of English at the University of Rochester.
I think I may have use this poem, maybe a couple of years ago, but it's funny and I like it so I'm using it again. Also, the journal is falling apart as I page through it so this might be my last chance to use it again.
Turkey Shooting on Mount Monadnoc
I saw all the signs:
"Turkey Shoot on Sunday."
Well now.
Come in your pick-up;
drive right to the village green
and load your shotgun
Blusterer of feathers,
gobbling in a wire cage,
neck-tics gesturing
the shape off space.
I took my turkey,
a Swift's Premium butterball
weighing eighteen pounds.
Hung it in the tree
where it swayed there, peaceful
as a moon of fat,
glistening like a great carbuncle.
And I sat down calmly
and shot it several times.
It seemed like the thing to do.
My second poet from the journal is Robert Pinksy, who, in 1973, was teaching at Wellesley College in Massachusetts.
Waiting
When the trains go by
The frozen ground shivers
Inwardly like an anvil.
The sky reaches down
Stiffly into the spaces
Among houses and trees.
A wisp of harsh air snakes
Upward between the glove
And cuff, quickening
the sense of the life
Elsewhere of things, the things
You touched, maybe, numb
Handle of a rake; stone
Of a peach; soiled
Band-Aid; book, pants
O shirt that you touched
Once in a store...less
the significant fond junk
Of someone's garage, and less
The cinder out o your eye -
Still extant and floating
In Sweden or a bird's crop -
than the things that you noticed
Or not, watching from a traIn:
The cold wide river of things,
Going by like the cold
Children who stood by the tracks
Holding for no reason sticks
Or other things, waiting
For no reason for the trains.
Day four - on to Durango.
Santa Fe to Durango
a good breakfast…
- food, especially breakfast,
an integral part of the pleasure
of travel for me -
and an early start
with another GPS glitch,
but we are saved from a lengthy
detour by my innate sense of direction
and my intimate knowledge of
such as on which side of the tree
does the moss grow,
and as regards the sanitary habits
of coyotes who are known to pee on either north
or south sides of the pinon bush
depending on the phase of the moon
- my advice to all GPS
users…turn your machine off
upon crossing the borders
of the not always so great
state of New Mexico, they seem
most often lost and quite pleased to have you
join them -
but on,
north by northwest,
past the mountain road
outside Santa Fe
that would take us up the mountain
and through the high forests.
past Los Alamos,
where secrets still hide
in the thin, cold air,
and around, a wide arc
spinning, us back to Albuquerque,
a five-hour drive
over mountain and forest roads,
among
the most beautiful
drives in the state, if you have time
to spend five hours going
where you could go in forty-five minutes
on the interstate…
but
we have no time this trip
and push on…
past Espanola, following
the Rio Grande River, the same river
I grew up alongside more than 67 years
and a thousand miles ago…
green pastures between the mountain
foothills, small valleys where cattle and horses feed,
and running through the pastures, the river,
and along the river, tall trees, yellow
in their seasonal change,
yellow
like sunshine gathered
in a bouquet
shifting like flowing gold
in the wind,
yellow so bright
it makes you blink -
like when you turn a light on
in the dark at midnight - yellow leaves
blown across the road by the wind
like golden snow
flurries…
and the road, after dropping
from 7,000 feet in Santa Fe, begins
to rise again, until, as we pass Tierra Amarilla
the small town in its valley of yellow earth, we see
the first snow-tipped mountain, at over
10,000 feet, the southern tail of the Rockies,
and just a few miles further, as we pass through
Chama, a stone’s throw from the Colorado border,
the mountains and their snowbound peaks
surround us on three sides, all sides but south…
the anti-climax,
Pagosa Springs, and a turn to the west,
an hour from Durango,
to our hotel, to our fourth floor balcony
overlooking the clear, frigid Animas River
flowing fast over rocks ground round by the flow,
a second home in my mind, a city that reminds
me of Austin in glory years in the 70s, before all
the rush and crowds that are too much a part of it
now, a small liberal-arts college atop a hill overlooking
downtown, sidewalks through town, quietly
and un-hurriedly busy with young people and
a few of us, the more grizzled, passing through, and
Magpies Coffee and Espresso, on the corner,
my place to watch and write and drink in the air
breathed by only a very few before me - my place
in Durango, still there after all these years
and all my visits…
Here are two poems by Aaron Silverberg, from his book Thoreau's Chair, published by Off the Press Enterprises in 2001.
Morning Aikido
deep breath
in unison
resounding clack!
the one body of many
hissing
into the rafters - arises!
cool wood on bare feet
muffled thumps
silent spinning bodies
tumble and tumble and tumble
across the floor
stiff gis yield
to warm, round bellies.
the long hall is cut
into circles
snapped out
into delicate origami.
just outside
the breath still steams...
On-nee-gosh-e-mas!
let's play.
Prosperity
several hours outdoors daily,
moving freely,
juicy conversations,
tears of happiness,
a good mess,
animal sounds,
a nap,
a hand-written letter,
chance encounter,
candlelight at night,
subtle aromatics,
singing in the shower,
watching children play,
gazing at an entire sunset,
inventing constellations,
helping someone in person,
listening,
a sacred place alone,
wind on bare skin,
giving what others can receive,
receiving what others give,
remembered dreams,
staying in bed,
certainly home.
Using Durango as our home base, we took a day trip to Ouray on the fifth day.
day trip to Ouray
no train
for us today, for it goes
only to Silverton, while our
destination, Ouray is further
up the road -
but if you’re so inclined
for a train ride
through canyons and forests
and up the side of a mountain,
riding in the open observation car at the train’s
tail, smelling the pine-scented forest,
the fresh cold wind blowing in your hair,
I surely recommend it…
but our trip was by automobile
beginning by following the train tracks
past green fields, and, on the east side,
aspen groves lining the Animas River,
that same fast river I watch from my balcony
at the hotel…
the train follows the river back to its high
mountain source, sometimes alongside the river, the
river in view of the passengers and sometimes not,
sometimes the train on a cliff-ledge barely more than
the width of the train,
with the river hundreds of feet below …
in the car
we see the river only intermittently
as we climb our highway path up the mountain,
at lower altitudes, driving through groves of aspen on either side,
like driving through a cloud of golden creamery butter, then higher,
where the leaves have already fallen, the bare white trunks
like patches on the pine-greened mountain side, then, above us
mountain crests covered by clouds flowing over the top
like melted marshmallow, snow blown over the top
and down to us, frozen
to ice pin heads, hitting our windshield
like river pebbles thrown against us by some wild
mountain child resenting our intrusion…
then higher,
over Molas Pass, more than ten thousand feet now above the low lands
where I grew up, four thousand feet above our hotel in Durango -
all around mountains white in clouds of blown snow, and the road
wet with ice and snow melt, the temperature dropping,…
then down from Molas, skirting Silverton, and up
again to Red MountaIn pass, even higher, eleven thousand feet,
the temperature has fallen to thirty four degrees, half what
it was when we started…
then down and into Ouray, determined to cut our visit short,
certain we didn’t want to tackle the two passes again, after dark
when the wet might have started freezing…
Ouray, a silver-rush survivor like Silverton, though
slightly larger, almost all the buildings on main street
(the only paved street we saw) dating from mid-to-late nineteenth
century, mostly brick and native stone, the thought of getting
the bricks up the mountain to here suggesting of the determination
of the people who made a life here, even after the silver was gone,
the determination that kept the city alive for the hunters and skiers
who are it’s lifeblood
now
the stubborn strength of mountain people never to be denied…
a very fine lunch of beef stew and a visit to a bookstore, the proprietor
pleased to sell me a book of poetry by a poet I never heard of, not
much interested in buying a book from me, a poet he’d never heard of -
truly the life of the poet in a nutshell, a buyer often, a seller rarely to ever be…
and the way back -
a reverse of the way we came
under sunshine all the way, ups and downs
and twists and turns and switchbacks
and views of our road high above or far below
that it takes ten minutes of maneuver to get to,
uneventful
but for the tumbleweed the size of VW bus
blown by the wind in front of us
as we approached Durango…
the biggest tumbleweed I’ve ever seen,
and I’ve seen
a few
Now I'm back to the February, 1973 issue of Poetry for two more poets.
The first of the poets, Michael MaGee who studied creative writing at the University of Washington and was making his first appearance in Poetry with this 1973 issue.
The Hand
I
I watch the sun rise in my hand,
the rays break light between my fingertips,
until sunshine fills my palm.
It stretches itself and yawns,
uncurling as the sun mounts higher,
extends those fingers spreading outward,
trembling before the heat of day.
And as the noon descends to dusk,
it marks the change and shivers.
Inside the thumb, a crescent moon emerges
as darkness creases a closing palm.
And as the night secures its hold,
knuckles whiten, fingers clench,
and veins grow blue with cold.
II
And when the dawn came, it opened again,
but I was closed and it had changed.
Veins stiffened like a mountain range,
rocky knuckles spiked the back country,
the fingers tightened to a fist.
The flesh raged on all day, all night:
I looked at it as though a world away.
My last poet from Poetry this week is Lynn Strongin, a teacher, in 1973, of creative writing at the University of New Mexico and recipient of a grant from the National Endowment for the Arts.
Countdown
Going out into clear moon-flooded night in my oilskin.
So full of joy today I wanted to rape the paperboy
then grocer's boy still wet behind the ears & with cowlick.
But it's a dark act for a girl to commit.
"Rope the eye in on me, scoot those sweetrolls 'cross table."
 : (Southern accents have suddenly become sweet, yellow
 :  : Texas rose.)
Guests arrive with white wine (can they never be on time?)
Paperboy, who came in morning, and grocer's boy by
 :  : afternoon,
your news is flat; your loaves are stale by evening.
Got a roomful of guests on my hands
who stack like priests out at ten.
The real news, the nourishing loaves
are that my dear in schoolgirl coat and nervous hands
is waiting round the corner, lightning matches, counting
 :  : down.
On the sixth day, another day trip, this one to Telluride.
a day trip to Telluride
a block away,
the train hoots
it’s long, loud moan
and a cloud of steam rises
from behind the trees
“all aboard, all aboard”
but not us…
today
we go west,
past Mesa Verde,
where the Anasazi people,
the ancestral people,
built their stone villages
into the sheltered walls
of deep canyons atop the high mesa,
a green table high above the harsher
prairies, a Eden in the clouds,
with wood for the fires that blackened
the carved out ceilings
of their cliff dwellings, where prey
roamed to be killed and eaten
where they found safety
from their enemies,
from where, one day, they left
seemingly all at once, all together,
moving their culture and
all their people,
seeking what, fleeing what,
no one knows, but leaving behind
stores of grain, assuming, it suggests
that one day they would return,
though they never did, becoming after they left,
what…
who…
no one knows that either…
but we’ve been there,
walked the ruins, heard the ghosts
of the disappeared people
whispering
in the pines and down the canyons -
today we go on to Dolores, little Dolores
on the Dolores River,
Dolores Del Rio, I cannot pass up the chance
to say, on our way to Telluride,
stopping at the Old Post Bed and Breakfast
on the northeast corner of the square, an old hotel
from the mid-nineteenth century when the trains
ran through and stopped and people would stay
for a night’s lodging on their way to the silver mines
higher up,
bought three years ago and run now
by Sheryl and Doug and Dan, the place threadbare now,
like most everything in Dolores…
breakfast in a little kitchen area,
listening to Sheryl and another woman,
discuss the relative merits of men from the oil fields
in Alaska as compared to the local product, finding
and ennumerating each
as to their merits and demerits in the areas
of practicality. reliability, physicality, grace on the dancefloor,
and sexual inventiveness and
stamina…
breakfast - fair
eavesdropping opportunity - outstanding…
the drive before and after Dolores, along
the river most of the way, not so twisty,
except for a few miles before reaching Telluride,
and much easier than the route to Ouray,
a steady climb to the little town in the mountains, famous
in song and cinema, surrounded
on three sides by mountains in the 13,000 to 14,000 range,
snow peaks looking down on the town, it’s sidewalks
full of young people, many more people than I expected,
considering that ski season is still several weeks
away…
our main object for this trip -
aside from the pleasure of seeing someplace
we had never seen
before -
Bridal Veil Falls -
the longest continuous fall waterfall
in Colorado, it’s base,
accessible, it turns out, only in a four-wheel drive
vehicle, the picture I had driven 100 miles
to take, despite the best efforts of my hardy little
SUV, turns out to be a far dribble
on the side of the mountain, like a white thread
draped over a not-very exceptional oil painting by
a student landscape painter
and lunch wasn’t very good either…
the drive back to Durango
unexceptional, mostly downhill,
inured by now to the beauty of the
trees and mountains, we don’t stop for
more pictures, the going down side of the
beautiful trees, etc. pretty much the same
as the coming up side
but for the herd of elk breaking from a stand
of trees and loping across an open pasture,
the only wildlife we’ve seen on this trip, more
than worth the quick glance we got
in passing…
back to Durango by five,
and, finally,
in the early evening,
a very fine dinner at the Italian place we found years ago, which
has, in the years since, changed it’s name
and moved to a different location,
and which may not really be the same place at all,
except that, for the purpose of the narrative
of our lives, we will identify it as the same place
and be pleased with ourselves
that we found it again,
no matter if it is or not,
real life, after all, is just a lengthy narrative
which can often be brightened
by a skillful application of
fiction which I am
good at…
five days of driving, plus a day
climbing up and down streets in Santa Fe
and I’m ready for a day off
tomorrow…
Here's a poem from Gary Soto, featured frequently on "Here and Now" and one of my favorite poets. It is the title poem from his book a simple plan, published in 2007 by Chronicle Books.
A Simple Plan
for V.M.
To get rid of
A dog, you put on
Your brother's shoes,
Slip into a shirt
Hanging on a nail
In the garage,
Smack Dad's hair oil
Into you dirty locks,
The scent of confusion.
You call, Let's go, boy,
And with the
Dog's neck in
A clothesline noose,
You follow your skinny shadow
Down the street
And cut through
A vacant lot,
Same place
Where you stepped
On a board with a nail
and whimpered home,
The board stuck
Like a ski to your shoe.
You walk past
The onion field,
Little shrunken heads
Hiding hot, unshed tears,
And stop at the canal.
the dog laps water,
Nibbles a thorn from his paw,
And barks at a toad
In the oiled weeds.
The sun's razor
Is shining at your throat,
And wind ruffles
Your splayed hair,
Where a hatchet
Would fit nicely -
You feel the sharpened
Edge of guilt.
Come on, boy
You say, and leap
On slippery rocks
Set in the canal.
You stop to
Look inside an abandoned
Car with a pleated grill -
Three bullet holes in the door
On the driver's side.
You think, Someone
Drove this car
Here and killed it.
You brave another mile.
When you arrive,
The dog prances with
Joy. What is it?
A jackrabbit in
The brush? Feral cat
Or stink birds? You pick up
A board, one just a little
Smarter than the one
That nailed you with pain.
With all your strength,
You hurl it end over
end. The dog knows
What to do. He runs
After it. Time for you to spin
On your heels and, arms
Kicked up at your side,
Lungs two bushes
Of burning fire,
Get back home.
That night it's steaks
On a grill, a celebration
Because someone
In the family won
A two-hundred-dollar lottery.
You eat to the bone
And then nearly
Choke on the gristle.
You drag your full
Belly to the front
Yard, and stake
Yourself on the lawn.
The neighbor's porch light
Bursts on, and a shooting
Star cuts across the sky -
You touch your throat
And think, Something just died.
You lay your hands
Laced behind your head.
Somewhere up
The block a dog barks.
My dog is out there,
You think, and behind
Your closed eyes
You see him, a nail
In his bloody paw,
A board in his mouth,
And shooting stars
Passing over the curves
Of his wet pupils.
If you were a better person,
You would stab
Your own foot
and let him pick up a scent
Back home.
Five days on the road and a day walking in Santa Fe, by the seventh day both of us were ready for a rest.
a day off in Durango
Wednesday,
seventh day on the road…
a rest day -
for Dee a day to restock at Walmart,
a nap, and a walk along the river
to the park, later a walk with me
downtown to find that Italian restaurant
that was so good when we first
found it five years ago…
for me
a morning at Magpie’s
to catch up on work undone
since the road intervened -
process
and prepare pictures (159 of them),
upload them from the camera then transfer
to Photobucket so that I can
process them to bring out the color
of the leaves and the green of the pines
and the white snow laid like clouds
across mountain peaks;
post pictures on the draft for my next
blog post next week;
review the proof and suggestions
my friend, Erin, made to my next book,
make corrections as she suggested, submit the
manuscript
to my publisher;
and somewhere and sometime in all that,
write my poem for the day, recounting the adventures
of the day before;
a dip
in the hot tub;
a short walk along the river;
nap;
and, with Dee, walk downtown, look at
and laugh at the properties posted to real estate
offices windows, everything half the size
of what we’ve got at twice the price , possibilities
of moving to Durango, dead and buried
along the roadside;
walk the aisle of a shop
full of very strange things tourists apparently buy,;
visit the bookstore where I sold
a couple of copies of my first book to a couple of years ago
(closed and for rent,
apparently I have that effect on booksellers);
enjoy an end-of-day drink (Tequila Collins,
my choice on those infrequent occasions
when I drink anything stronger than Pepsi One)
in the elegant ambience of the Diamond
Lil Bar and Grill at the historic Strater Hotel (100
(and a whole bunch years old on the corner by the train
station where the trains seems to hoot on an irregular schedule
whether it’s going anywhere or not) followed by superior $5 hamburger,
both drink and burger served by a scantily-clad young woman
with superior legs and breasts (Dee didn’t mind my appreciation
of said legs and breasts, understanding that after a certain age
men viewing superior legs and breasts are doing so out of appreciation
of beauty, unrelated to any carnal desires or intentions,
recognizing impossible dreams
when we dream one...
in the end,
a pleasant day of rest and work…
tomorrow,
a start on the way home,
first stop Albuquerque
Next, I have early work by E.E. Cummings, the final two poems from an eleven part series titled, Love Poems. The series is from the collection, Etcetera - The Unpublished Poems, published in 1983 by Liveright Publishing. The poem were written during Cummings Harvard years, 1911-1916.
It's heretical to say, but I like Cummings early poems at least as much I like his later work, (maybe more, when, it seems to me, despite his most famously sharp exceptions, he lost faith in the force of his narratives and began his final phase as the experimental trickster.
But even in these very early poems, signs of the future Cummings and his innovations can be seen.
To me, this is the poet at his best.
X
You are tired,
(I think)
Of the always puzzle of living and doing;
And so am I.
Come with me, then,
And we'll leave it far and far away -
(Only you and I, understand)
You have played
(I think)
And broke the toys you were fondest of,
And are a little tired now;
Tired of things that break, and -
Just tired.
So am I.
But I come with a dream in my eyes tonight,
And I knock with a rose at the hopeless gate of your heart -
Open to me!
For I will show you the places Nobody knows,
And, if you like,
The perfect places of Sleep.
Ah, come with me!
I'll blow you that wonderful bubble,the moon,
That floats forever and a day;
I'll sing the jacinth song
Of the probable stars;
I will attempt the unstartled steppes of dreams,
Until I find the Only Flower,
Which shall keep (I think) your little heart
While the moon comes out of the sea.
XI
Let us lie here in the disturbing grass,
And slowly grow together under the sky
Sucked frail by Spring, whose meat is thou and I,
This hurrying tree,and yonder pausing mass
Hitched to time scarcely,eager to surpass
Space:for the day decided; O let us lie
Receiving deepness,
Hearing,over
The poised,rushing night ring in the brim
Of Heaven;then, perpendicular odors stealing
Through curtains of new loosened dark;and one -
As the unaccountable bright sun
Becomes the horizon -
Bird,nearly lost,lost;wheeling,wheeling.
Then, on the eighth day, time to head for home.
homebound, Durango to Albuquerque
US-550,
a different road back
from the way we came,
straight to Albuquerque,
south from Durango, then
through the western side of New Mexico,
avoiding Santa Fe…
beginning
on the edge of Durango,
a long climb on the side of a steep,
steep hill, the city and green pastures
far below - a gentle, green landscape,
farms, pastures - from the road,
an idyllic pastoral life,
not seeing this time off the year
the isolation of winter snowbound
homes and cottages, drifts across the road
and up against the side of the houses and barns,
feeding horses and cattle in the cold…
just a few miles and we cross into New Mexico
and the pastoral life is behind us,
the view to road side showing the rougher side of
rural New Mexico, brush, desert sand, tiny towns
far-separated, low rolling
hills, growing steeper and larger until
we pass Aztec and Cuba and into the badlands,
the splendor of stark desolation, deep arroyos cut
by mountain run-off, cliffs of soft stone, sculptured
into fantastical forms and figures through erosion,
angels and gargoyles carved into the cliff’s sides, or
standing tall between sandstone towers and spires high
against the pale blue sky, cold looking skies, like the blue
inside ice in the sun, mounds of black volcanic gravel,
huge, irregular shaped volcanic boulders, black as a
catastrophic night on pale rose sand -
incredible to find such beauty in this end of the world
landscape, minimal and stark, old, so very old,
changed so very slowly over
the course of eons, that it appears new as the day
the volcanoes blew and the earth shook
and human kind still far ahead in the stately passing
of time, sea, to swamp, to desert, to eventually humans,
generations and generations of us, who, in our modern
arrogance will turn it all to swamp again…
the day ends in Albuquerque, a city
of special meaning to me - September, 1964,
20 years old, climbing down from my first airplane ride
to see my first mountains, the Sandias, to the east,
hanging, in my mind, over everything, air sweet and clear
and dry and so thin to my coast-grown lungs, a few months
later my first snow…
September to December, Peace Corps training
at the University of New Mexico, consorting with people
the likes of whom I never imagined in my small town life, the
birth of a new me, no going back, grown different
from where I started…
____
a restless night, my back objecting
to consecutive nights of hotel beds, early coffee at Starbucks
while Dee sleeps, red dawn
through the window, the new day
begins…
today - nearly 400 miles to go,
through Carlsbad again,
then to Fort Stockton,
tomorrow,
home
I bought this new book today (used as are all my new books) that looks like it's going to be a lot of fun. The book, by poet Monica Youn, is ignatz, a collections of poem concerning the additional imagined adventures of "Ignatz" the obsessive mouse character from the comic strip, Krazy Kat, created by George Herriman. The strip ran in daily papers from 1913 to 1944.
Youn is an attorneey at the Brennan Center for Justice at NYU School of Law, where she is the Director of the Money in Politics project. She has been awarded poetry fellowships from the Library of Congress, the Rockefeller Foundation, and Stanford University. She has taught creative writing at Pratt Institute and Columbia University.
This book, published in 2010 by Four Way Books, was a National Book Award finalist. It is her second book.
Ignatz in August
you arch
up off me
sweat flowers
white out
of my every
desert pore
Ignatz Oasis
When you leave me
the sky drains of color
like the skin
of a tightening fist.
The sun commences
its gold prowl
batting at tinsel streamers
on the electric fan.
Crouching I hide
in the coolness I stole
from the brass rods
of your bed.
Semper Ignatz
How could it have been other
than abrupt
when as ever
im medias Ignatz remarked,
Sometimes I don't like
fucking. Whoosh! a billow
of white cambric sheets the scene,
through which her nipples glow dully.
taillights in snow.
The Death of Ignatz
The mesas
sink to their knees
and let the snickering dunes
crawl over them.
The Subject Ignatz
once more an urge; once more a succumb.
Even as a lawn
or tree
is more attractive
when configured
as individual
leaves
than as
a seamless
green integument.
*
Asbestos
interlude:
the rubber
button
replumps itself.
The pin
pokes through
the black
wax
and scratches
the bottom
of the pan.
*
All the unseen
valves
of the night
click open,
a blue-violet
pour down
a fretless throat.
*
There can be no
launch, only
trajectory
in this elastic
room.
Invisible Ignatz
I would forget you were it not that unseen flutes
keep whistling the curving phrases of your body.
The next leg home is Albuquerque to Fort Stockton, in Texas. Not the place I'd prefer to stop for the night, but every other place in every other direction is too far.
homebound, Albuquerque to Fort Stockton
back to Texas
today,
Albuquerque to Fort Stockton…
from our hotel
three blocks from Old Town, Albuquerque,
I-40 through the pass between
the Sandia and Manzana mountains,
an easy drive east through rolling foothills
at expressway speeds, then south
at Cline’s Corners, a city consisting
of a glorified gas station for long-haul truckers
and not a single other thing
that I can see…
south on US-285, the highway we followed north
to Santa Fe eight days ago, nothing ahead
but a long, long drive and small lost towns, until
Roswell, Carlsbad, and then, 60 miles across the state line,
Fort Stockton and a night’s rest before the last leg home…
not a journey
suggesting poetry, epic or beautiful or even poetic,
from north of Roswell to Fort Stockton, flat brown
nothingness, stretching in every direction except west,
where a mountain range tries to hide barely above the horizon…
desolation,
not beautiful like the stark and severe desolation
of the badlands, but desolate like beige paint
on an institutional wall, lost people, it seems to us
traveling through, knowing, but still faintly disbelieving.
that there are people who live here, convinced,
to obvious appearances, that it is a good life -
on the other hand,
there is an inordinate number of UFO sightings
in this Roswell to Fort Stockton region, possibly , I theorize,
because of the very large number of persons living here
who’ll do anything to get away,
including, if necessary,
hitching a ride with little green men
with bubble heads and knobby knees
and a perverse interest in examining
the sexual organs of ranchers
and oil well roughnecks
(it’s like hitchhiking, those who wish to escape
must think,
a ride is a ride is a ride
and as long as it’s going the other way
from here, it’ll work in a pinch
and a little sexual organ examination
might be fun,
and better than they’re getting at home
anyway)
____
but perhaps
I am being overly harsh…
I’ve been away from home
for nine days
after all,
and have seen mountains and streams
and forests and clear blue skies and all manner
of things far and beautiful
and I miss my bed and my easy chair
and my dog and my favorite
comics
in my daily newspaper
and my early-morning breakfast place
and my coffeeshop
and all the other pleasures of home
not always recognized
until taken away -
all of which will be returned to me
tomorrow afternoon,
by which time I am sure I will
be feeling
better
The next poem is by Mary Crow, from her book, , published by BOA Editions in 1989. I bought the book in Durango at a bookstore whose proprietor expressed disinterest in buying a couple of copies (cheap!) of my first book, Seven Beats a Second. This bookstore was several blocks down the street from the bookstore whose proprietor bought several of my books a couple of years ago and which is now closed and boarded up.
I try not to take any lessons from situations such as this.
Crow, the poet, was winner of a Poetry Fellowship from the National Endowment for the Arts in 1984 for her own work and a Translation Award for her book of translations of Latin American women poets. At the time this book was published, she taught creative writingt at Colorado Staste University in Fort Collins.
Montserrate
They climb the mountain on their knees
Dirty, their patched pants
breaking open
the dark-faced lady sobbing
A child holding his crutch over his head
hauls his body up a foot at a time
and the sky is so beautiful
full of green fingers of pine
below clean clouds
the blue color of church windows
At the top in the church
racks of tiny candles
50 pesos each
burn for the dead
for the living
in that dark church
the moreno Christ looks darker
blood streaming down his arm
down his leg
The people think he is theirs
but the priest has wrapped him
in plastic to protect Christ's knees
from their wet kisses and dirty fingertips
They have crawled up here
their bloody knees burning
and like Christ they wear drops of sweat
on their foreheads and backs
Here they are in this high church
in their temple of trees
the sough of wind a music
the white and blue sky
church and Mary
a cleanness they desire
But Christ
the Chis of Sorrows
collapsed above the pulpit
leans on his arm
and can't raise his head
to look at them
They have left their crutches
their walking sticks
here for him
here for love
and think they will walk again
without their cross
Urchins pass through the pilgrims
as they arrive
looking for worshippers
blinded by tears
or tourists
snapping the worshipers
the urchins' faces hard
their eyes beady as Christ's
Finally, the last leg home, 300 miles to go, out of 2,500 traveled over ten days. As usual, mile by mile, the longest we traversed.
last leg home, Fort Stockton to San Antonio
from Fort Stockton,
first, flat mesa after flat mesa,
each spiked,
in this area of constant wind,
with turbines, so elegant and beautiful
against the sky, sharp, straight lines, vanes
turning slowly, alien, in a way,
like giant steel grasshoppers overlooking
the highway from every side, but still a marvel
of beauty and utility, promise
of a better cleaner future in this desert
where grit blown from giant coal-fired electric plants
in Mexico floats in a haze between
the mesas…
then flat for a while, a high plain between
Sonona and Ozona, a dry plain, little to see
in any direction but black creosote brush
and small mesquite, and an occasional hunting
stand high above the highway…
until a stop in Ozona for breakfast at Pepe’s,
off the expressway, on the road through town,
the only thing open, a small purple and gold stucco building,
inside walls covered with the owner/cook’s art,
everything from a copy of Warhol’s Marilyn
to creations from the artist’s own imagination, including
excellent eggs over easy and sausage, strong, rich,
coffee, the first since the weak brew at the hotel
a hundred and fifty miles back - a drive through town,
small city square with grand stone buildings
in the late nineteenth century Greco-Roman style
of important people and important places…
sic transit Gloria mundi…
past Ozona
and the high planes, entering
the long, steep inclines of the high Hill Country,
high rolling hills, highway cuts showing
the different colors of all the geologic ages
since the sea-covered beginning, limestone surface,
dark to light green, yellow, large chestnut (what the original
Crayolos called “Indian Red”) patches, like red-brown rust
stains across the hills, occasional deep red and white, the foliage
of central Texas in the fall…
then home, grass high, plants in the back, limp and brown
from ten days of inattention, things to do tomorrow -
but not today…
I have now two poems by Bruce Weigl. The poems are from his book, The Unraveling Strangeness, published in 2002 by Grove Press.
Weigl is the author of thirteen books of poetry, a memoir, three collections of criticism, translations (as sole or co-translator) of three books of poetry from the Vietnamese and one from the Romanian. He's received the Pushcart Prize twice, the Academy of American Poets Prize and fellowships from Bread Loaf, the Yaddo Foundation and the National Endowment of the Arts.
Black-and-Tan Dog
I hit a black-and-tan dog
with my car,
at night on a windy road
at 50 mph.
Thump, thump
was all that it said,sitting
strangely in the middle of my lane
like a suicide,
and it saw my eyes
in a moment
that I didn't want to
have with him,
so the next morning I drove back
to find who owned the dog,
and to say my grief
under gray autumn clouds
that hung so low
they seemed to want me. We
shift around from thing to thing
inside our minds. The geese
have come to rest
all over these cornfields.
There are so many,
like a blanket, but
on one home at the farmhouse,
where there's a bloodstain
in the road near the driveway
where the dog must have landed,
or where they had dragged it
earlier in the morning, and
stuck in the weedy ditch nearby
a homemade wrath of wildflowers
bound with a wire.
No one else in the car had seen the dog.
I was driving too fast.
It was sitting in the middle of the road.
There was no chance for me to stop.
I've played it over in my mind more than once, and
there was no chance for me to stop.
Meeting Mr. Death
You could say I
kept my cool
when I met Mr. Death.
I even made him
laugh
by offering my
hand to shake
in the bullet-torn
morning hours,
and then I said,
Are you looking for me
and he got the joke. Death
gets the joke
or else
our whole lies
are a lie and a waste.
He didn't take my hand,
but he laughed at my jokes
and he made me feel
welcome inside the grace
he still wore,
shawl of the ghostly
angel he had been
but could not remember.
Mr. Death,
he was hanging around some
pals of mine, some
boys of the unspeakable
rapture of war. He
could have had me that morning
too, when I looked away
to the monsoon-heavy
river
where the bodies
had come to rest
in the last eddies,
but he changed his mind.
Trip over, but post yet to finish. I'll end with a couple of poems I wrote before we left.
rainy day confabulations
summer’s
bitter days
washed away
in a night of lightning
and thundering
rain
which is both
wonderful
and true
but doesn’t
change the fact that
the old man at the table
across from me
has the shiniest bald head
I’ve ever seen, maybe the shiniest thing
I’ve seen since the spit-shined shoes
of my DI in basic training way back when,
really shiny shoes, that fellow maintained,
and expected us to do the same
but it was damn hard to do
making me wonder how the old guy
at the table keeps his head so shiny,
making me wonder if he requires his wife,
the very prim lady in purple, to spit-shin his head,
that’d be a sight to see,
unlikely, I know,
but the only way I know to get anything that shiny
…but
wait!
I think it must be shiny day
today
since a very tall older fellow
just walked in with the shiniest
hair I’ve ever seen, gunmetal gray
flowing back to his neck, shiny
as the barrel of a Colt 45 Gunsel
Grappler revolver like Sheriff Jimmie Mac
Wayne wore in the movie Gunsel Grappling
at Flat-Rock Creek Crossing Flats, or some such
cowboy
title…
really shiny hair
that fellow - I had fairly shiny hair
until I cut it all off, but not shiny like
this guy, dull shiny more like the hull of the
aircraft carrier USS Wisconsin
which I was on once and found amazing
though the only really shiny thing
on it was the teak deck which was deep brown,
shiny and beautiful…
perhaps I could grow my hair long again
and make it shiny like the tall fellow
or , maybe easier, clear it all away, even
the stubble that remains, shave my head
bald like the first fellow
and spit shine it, except I can’t do that myself
and don’t know anyone who’d do it for me, and
i know better
than to even ask
my dearly beloved to help on such a particular
task
what to do?
conundrum upon conundrum
this fine Sunday morning, refreshingly
though that, while I think about it, conjugate
the perimeters of the issue, collaborate
with my inner know-it-all, I can at least
watch it rain, which it has been doing now,
after a night of lightning and thundering
rain, for about six hours, and I’m wondering
about the man with the shiny bald head, does
the rain bead and run off like it does on a Windex
slippery window…
that’s what I like about Sundays, slow, quiet
mornings , with time to think about all sorts of things
usually unconsidered in the normal course
of a regular day
And, last this week from my library, two short poems by John Updike. The poems are from his book, Endpoint and Other Poems, published Knopf in 2009.
Stretch
What light is tenderer
than this of early February
at 5:05 p.m. or so,
just trying brightness out
The trash cans lie emptied
and cockeyed on the curb,
the trees in the little park
hold old snow in their shade,
but a bird's rude song pierces
the cloud of expectant twigs
while a real cloud turns magenta
in the newly prolonged blue.
TV
As if it were a tap I turn it on,
not hot or cold but tepid infortainment,
and out it gushes, sparkling evidence
of conflict, misery, concupiscence
let loose on little lashes, in remissions
of eager advertising that envisions
on our behalf the the better life contingent
upon some buy, some needful acquisition.
A sleek car takes a curve in purring rain,
a bone-white beach plays host to lotioned skin,
a diaper soothes a graying beauty's frown,
an unguent eases sedentary pain,
false teeth are brightened, beer enhances fun,
and rinsed hair hurls its ting across the screen:
these spurts of light are drunk in by my brain,
which sickens quickly, till it thirsts again.
And here it is, a final travel poem of a sort. Well, maybe uniquely of my sort. And my final poem of this week's post.
path to enlightment
I intend
to put my brain
on a leash this morning
because I’m thinking I want to be taken
seriously
as a poet and
adult human being
of the masculine persuasion
and nobody takes nobody serious
who’s always running off at the brain
like I’m prone to do,
chasing every little bushy-tailed squirrel
that happens to cross my path
to enlightenment,
meaning making it hard to get to the end
of that path,
difficult to find the enlightenment
that one naturally expects
of a human being
of the masculine persuasion
and a poet to boot
never
even close
chasing squirrels
instead…
but, second-guessing myself,
something us chasing-every-squirrel types
rarely do, and
never without good cause,
I’m reconsidering my decision
to adopt the leash-constrained
mode, thinking to abandon
the chase for the mantle of seriousity
expected of poets and adult human beings
of the masculine persuasion
because there are advantages
to the chasing-every-squirrel
state of mind, like flushing out a bird
bath, getting rid of all the leaves and algae
and bird poop that collects in the presence
of birds and shallow water, giving it a good flush,
a good scraping out, leaving behind clear water,
water free of entrenched distraction, water
renown for it’s clear thinking, water that knows
its own mind - and I’m thinking that is a clear advantage
for the chasing-every-squirrel state of mind, because
how is one to find enlightenment when the path
is strewn with leaves and algae and philosophical bird
poop?
just won’t work…
if you want to find enlightenment
you have to clear the path, flush the pump,
like you flush a birdbath and that’s what a chasing-
every-squirrel state of mind, freed from the leash
and on the chase, is good for, stirring up such
a frenzy, a regular twister of misdirection
that blows
all the extraneous crap out of the way, leaving
a clear path, enlightenment
just over the next
rise…
seriously…
The end.
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