Introducing "Alphabet City" - The Latest by Alex Stolis
Thursday, May 27, 2010
 “Fingertips on an Inca’s Back” Vincent Martinez V.5.4.
This week my featured poet is Alex Stolis, with his new poem, Alphabet City.
Alex is very generous with me, often sending me his new work, sometimes before he’s done anything else with it, telling me I can use what I want.
His new poem, Alphabet City is an amazing piece and I knew when I read it that I wanted it all, not just pieces of it. Because of its length, I began to think how I could present it, maybe in sections over two weeks or even three, then decided that for full effect it had to be read as a whole, all at once. So here it is, for the first time ever and all of a piece, available, as it should be, in one reading.
It is my opinion, as I told Alex, this is the best stuff of his I’ve read.
In addition to Alphabet City, i came across a couple off other long pieces this week that I wanted to use. The result, this week’s “Here and Now” is a longer read than usual.
This week I’m also featuring artist Vincent Martinez.
Vince was my collaborator on my book, Seven Beats a Second, providing the art that I used on every page. The art in this issue are some of the paintings I drew from for the book. These paintings and others by Vince from the book can be seen at my 7beats website, www.7beats.com, including prices if you’re of a mind to buy (though I suspect they’re already all sold).
Here are the poets I have this week, a smaller list than usual, but with longer poems. I hope you enjoy both the poetry and the art.
James Hoggard Two Gulls, One Hawk
Me this poem is not about waxpaper
William Meredith Pastoral Thoughts on One’s Head
Me Reba has another Jedi moment
Michael Lassell How to be a Hedonist
Me at loose ends
Andrew Bird Fake Palendromes
Alex Stolis Alphabet City
Jane Hirshfield Of Gravity & Angels
Me chipping away
Lynn Crosbie Starvation Diary
Me don’t bury me on the lone prairieeee: a modest proposal
Joshua Clover Union Pacific
Me day break summer in south texas true romance yippi ky yay looking good love in the summer once in mississippi the smell of sumer ended
 “Cloud Exits” Vincent Martinez
My first poem this week is from Two Gulls, One Hawk by James Hoggard. The book was published by Prickly Pear Press in 1983, It consists of two long poems, the first 30 pages and the second, the title poem for the book, 45 pages.
Hoggard, whose poetry has been praised for its intensity and fine sense of craft, has also won awards and acclaim for his fiction, literary translation, and personal essays. A former NEA fellow and past president of the Texas Institute of Letters,his work has been published throughout the U.S. as well as in Canada, India, England, the Czech Republic, and Cuba. He is the McMurtry Distinguished Professor of English at Midwestern State University in Wichita Falls, Texas.
Both poems in the book represent quintessential West Texas and the American Southwest sensibilities.
This is the eleventh and final section of the title poem, very long for “Here and Now,” but I don’t think you can read Hoggard deeply unless you read him as complete as possible.
Unfortunately one section of eleven is as complete as I can do here.
from Two Gulls, One Hawk
11
The sand of the sea shifts under your feet A gull flies inland toward desert Its mate waits for it there
The fruit of the prickly pear’s turned red
The gulls fly together, their feathers in the colors of clouds
A hawk sweeps a circle above them
The gulls do not know it’s there They fly together till twilight comes
The hawk’s now in a leafless tree, but buds on twigs are beginning to form The frost in the weather of self is past
And without sound the sun throws the low clouds into explosion: red orange yellow violet - opulence now and radiance too
The fire the tree the gods
The gulls come to rest on the sand
All night the flint-eyed hawk keeps vigil above them
To protect them or attack them?
Tonight no rattler will strike through their sleep You and your kind will dream, if you dream, of green valleys, troughs in the sea, and the range of mountains liquidly rising above them The hawk will need no dream The hawk’s eyes cut through the night as yours might do
And in the morning when dew glistens flowers
When dew shines crowns-of-thorns and prickly pear,
When mica and quartz catch the sun in sandstone
The hawk will not longer be in the tree but flying away, in the distance now, he’ll hold in his talons the power of darkness he’s seized from the land
And the gulls will leave to look for a lake, waves from a thousand mirages glowing below them
Is phosphorous in the desert’s sea?
And have you heard the clicking yet?
From grasshoppers or rattlesnakes? Or from the bones Ezekiel knew?
Or the cracking of waves Amos heard when justice rolled like a torrent?
You have in your hand a long stick You won’t need it for a weapon or for walking today You’ll throw it as far as you can but it won’t leave your hand You’ll throw it again as far as you can but it won’t leave your hand
The stick itself is my hand
And the thrust of your arm?
The animate drive of lyrical form, my body extending communicantly
You understand now the patterns driving will into breath into will beyond self
The stick is the weather I hold in my hands
Lightning and breezes, sunlight and shade, the rage to sail clear through mountainous waves
The sky’s turning red The blood of god slain spreads through the sky
But the tint comes from dust
It always has
Where I ask is the miracle?
There wasn’t one
Jacklegged jokes chased it away
There was. A miracle did occur
No, It didn’t unless you conjure back the moment you in your whimsy invented when tree became truth:
The tubular stick in St. Teresa’s hand
a concentration on a contraction in the groin when she squeezed it - I heard a fine moan
and love transformed the lust to prayer
and prayer became erotic desire
The gasp of sunset leaving
She leaned upon her broom
Be still now, still
The moon will sweep the night away
The darkest part of night remains, be still
In memory it stays though moon’s light shines: a frozen fire
burning the self-clotted pall of clouds away
And the tree’s fingers reach
For what?
The floor of the heavens
hair and flesh of god-the-gods
And the arms of the other you complete yourself with
But the wind - It’s rising again
The wind is your breath and her breath joined and, freed, the breath returns then slides between your bellies, up your thighs and moisture sprays from ocean waves rising and troughing
in our undulant and shrimp-scented hair
The gulls and the hawk - They’re flying now
Your arms will sail on past them
My wife was with me there in the garden A throbbing in my loins, a fluttering through our flesh
As wind begins dying love’s shudder retrieves it
But where is the flame that colored the clouds?
In the throbbing you touch and redeem yourselves with: the embracement that’s vaster than self,
the joy transcending rage and spite, the gladness of pleasure and freedom from self
Self’s the pissantedness of our time, a waste of flesh a muddlement of mind Spit into the wind and the wind spits back
But you were right There was no miracle not today, no miracles came
But in her eyes a radiance shone
That was then St. Teresa’s now alone
She’s not, and besides she’s not the one I meant
In the form of a breeze god- the-gods winnowed her hair We all were there She was our Other
She’s not the one I meant
Yet she kept on sweeping around you You had left the naked sun, the scorcht place in your grove You had left the breezeless dark pressing heavily upon you
We watched her, uncovered head bowed, blessing the floor
As night came sleep came with it
And with sleep dreams
Of what?
We were lying below her high window in the long moist grass
And a miracle, you think, occurred?
The hawk disappeared The gulls were gone too A light came over the land As I opened my eyes I remembered -
Say it
I can’t The taste of blood and salt is on my tongue
The mark of god slain
Wine-redness at dawn
Then a shaft of a shadow came down from the high thin window where no glass was A breeze passed over you
Its coolness covered us The grass beneath us became again green was no longer straw
A miracle did occur There were others embraced by that shadow They knew it though you were unmindful of them For a moment a miracle did light upon you and it touched them too
But they’ll forget They always do
Our arms around our backs, we pressed together Our arms for a moment curled all around the whirl-drunk world, and the heat of our touching is still fast upon us
Love does that, and wine, the blessings of her tending cloister for you
We rose through distractions, past confusions of fatigue Redemption came
It comes from pushing your dust into form
Our sweat dripped upon it and the dirt took shape
It was her sweat as much as yours and tears as much as sweat
They come from the trouble children bring, from the shafts of the shadows we imagine they cast between us -
The distractions of their irreverent force
Children lie within us all In darkness a memory of light shines wanly in our eyes
Why wanly?
The world read St. Teresa’s story wrong, and we when we’re harried do the same with our own The grief of the inner, self-locked wind
The hawk near the gulls again
The world lying moistly, its matting our bed
And the dawn rose into noon that descended to dusk whose sunset gasped into night
But lightning brought the twilight heaving back
Then darkness caved in upon us yet dawn, like a wedge, stirred again up through it
The slow undulation of time moving around you and waving through your flesh You took up her broom
Blest by the burden you felt your arms going light such happens in memory more than flight
And by it we measure the rhythms of time
That’s surely your mistake, not hers She took her broom back, and sweeping she accepted the visions when they came She did not demand a new one each day She said she preferred -
Her preference is not mine She had no child and loved no mate Though Christ in her profound flesh
But you can’t reject her
I’m not Her knowledge begins the past of what our lyrical miracle is A shining tone rings beyond the noise coming from the lungs but barely reaching tongue -
Except in rage or praise, except in whimsies of speech
But what about the volcanic pit you called the howling bowels of self?
Battered, I measured words by it But when our arms curl now around the whirl-drunk world we are lying together beyond that world, we are standing together within that world and my son is seeing it with us
Two gulls, lone hawk soaring through the vagrant light
and a stillness shines beyond you over the earth and down into soil
deeply into the fragrant earth and out through a radiance of distant stars
Their huge spread of light touches this place where we are.
 “Chicken Wings & Pretty Things” Vincent Martinez
The nice thing about my life is, at least until I die, I can always start over.
this poem is not about waxpaper
every morning i have my breakfast, drink my coffee, read my newspaper,
then open my laptop and out pops the word that will lead me to the day’s poem -
this morning, the word is “waxpaper”
recognizing this is poetry and not real life, i close my laptop
order another pot of coffee and sit back to start over, “slips”
is what i remember we called it when i was a kid playing marbles
and the marble slipped off your cocked finger or your cocked finger slipped and your marble went all
screwy
and poetry being a lot more like marbles than real life, i’m calling “slips” on “waxpaper”
until i think of something better, like maybe, “real life” and how the game of marbles
is good preparation for young boys not yet required to engage in “real life”
except for the “slips” part, which might be good preparation for young boys
destined to engage in the game of “poetry” at some point in the the later portions of their life -
whether the game is "holes" or "circles," the whole game is about getting ahead of your opponents
usually by knocking their marbles out of the way, a situation, as in real life
where advantage lies always with the boy with the biggest
marbles
 “Lime Grape” Vincent Martinez
I have two poems now by William Meredith from his book, Effort at Speech, published in 1997 by Triquarterly Books.
Born in New York City in 1919, Meredith’s first book of poetry, Love Letter from an Impossible Land, was written while he was in the US Navy during World War II. The book won the Yale Series of Younger Poets competition in 1943. His many books since have won many honors, including the Pulitzer Prize for Poetry in 1988 and the National Book Award for Poetry for this book.
Meredith died in New London, Connecticut, near his home in Montville, where he lived with his partner of 36 years.
Pastoral
The girl lies down on the hill In the grass in the sun in June. Love calls for the breaking of will, The young man knows that soon
His will to be free must break, And his ego, dear as a wife; His hand is a brown mistake Lacing him into life
As blank as a flower, her face Is full of the meadow’s musk and the shadow of grass like lace On the hill where she wills the dusk.
Thoughts on One’s Head
(In Plaster, with a Bronze Wash)
A person is very self conscious about is head It makes one nervous just to know it is cast In enduring materials, and that when the real one is dead The cast one, if nobody drops it or melts it down, will last.
We pay more attention to the front end, where the face is Than to the interesting and involute interior: The Fissure of Rolando and such queer places Are parks for the passions and fears and mild hysteria.
The things that go on there! Erotic movies are shown to anyone not accompanied by an adult. The marquee out front maintains a superior tone; Documentaries on Sharks and The Japanese Tea Cult.
The fronts of some heads are extravagantly pretty. These are females. Men sometimes blow their tops About them, launch triremes, sack a whole city. The female head is mounted on rococo props.
Judgement is in the head somewhere; it keeps sums Of pleasure and pain and gives belated warning; This is the first place everybody comes With bills, complaints, writs, summons, in the morning.
This particular head, to my certain knowledge Has been taught to read and write, to make love and money, Operate cars and airplanes, teach in college, And tell involved jokes, some few extremely funny.
It was further taught to know and to eschew Error and sin. which it does erratically. This is the place the soul calls home just now. One dislikes it of course: it is the seat of Me.
 “Myth Melt” Vincent Martinez
Old Reba, she’s just full of surprises.
Reba has another Jedi moment
she does this sort of thing often
like yesterday
comes to my bedroom where i’m napping and wakes me, and i ask her what she wants, but she just returns to her bed and goes back to sleep
a minute later my son calls
stuck in traffic
where do i want to meet him for dinner?
somewhere halfway between where he’s stuck and where i am
he was driving in from Austin and i had been waiting for him to call but fell asleep in my chair
Reba wanted to make sure i didn’t miss the call, so she woke me just before -
she’s the alarm clock that sounds just before the appointed hour
the smoke detector that smells the future of smoke -
she has these Jedi moments often, so we’re almost used to them
almost
 “Predictable Patterns” Vincent Martinez
The next poem is by Michael Lassell, taken from the anthology, A Day for a Lay - A Century of Gay Poetry, published by Barricade Books in 1999. It’s a long poem - this seems to be the week for long poems - but clever and fun from first word to last.
Lassell, born in 1947, lives in New York City and is an editor and writer of poetry, stories, essays and travel articles.
How to be a Hedonist for Gavin Dillard
Know that it isn’t easy. Give yourself permission to fail. Most do. It is no disgrace. Many begin by finding a lover to lose themselves in, a body that quivers as bodies should and deeper than you’ve ever imagined. If you cannot live for pleasure, live for love or for the moment. Trace the curves of your lover’s back with cool lips and hot intentions. Failing that, live whatever way you can. Nobody is perfect. Nobody is keeping track.
Little you have learned will aid you “All good things must come to an end” is not a hedonist credo. Neither is: “A stitch in time saves nine.” Neither is: “A penny saved is a penny earned.” Generally speaking, if your mother learned a thing from her mother, it will not help you. It is better to say: “I’d give up everything for you.” but it is not best to believe it.
Reading is irrelevant. What you need to know is not in books. You must learn from trial and error. If you must read books, do not read anything written by an American prior to Tropic of Cancer. Do not read poetry by T.S. Eliot or by Ezra Pound. Do not read Dante or Goethe or anything by a Scandinavian, a Lutheran, or a computer programmer. Do not read Greek tragedy unless you think it’s funnier than Roman comedy. read instead the moods of your lover’s eyes. Try to outguess them.
Do not think. No matter what. No matter how much you are moved or tempted to do so. Unless you are one of the few - one of the rare few - for whom ideas are sensual, for whom concepts slide like heavy cream around the white porcelain bowl of your brain, unless abstractions tickle the inside of your thighs like a ride downhill taken as a child. If you must think, invent new ways to make love without accouterments.
If you must think, in spite of all advice to the contrary, if you must think of other things than love, do not express your thoughts. Thoughts given tongue can kill. There is no antidote for an aphrodisiac more effective than a thought spoken aloud.
If you must think your thoughts aloud speak softly and in metaphor. Do not say: “The trade embargo imposed against the legitimate government of Nicaragua by the right-wing faction of the Republican Party causes me as much anxiety as the threat of nuclear annihilation.” Say rather: “The flavor of your skin gives me reason to live.”
No matter what happens, do not despair. Five senses are not many, but they are sufficient. One alone is sufficient if properly handled. Start with one. Practice. Become a gourmet. An aficionado. A connoisseur. When you have mastered one, try another. Try them in concert. It is not impossible to enjoy all five senses at once, but it is impudent and inadvisable. Indulging more than three senses at any one time is superfluous. Any fool can see that, even and old fool with new tricks.
Do not live in a cold place. Do not live under martial law or inhabit any nation ruled by a zealot. Do not live in a country at war with itself or in any territory occupied by the Soviet Union, and do not dwell in Israel, Jordan, or Lebanon - even if your are a journalist (and it is not wise to be a journalist: fact is anathema to hedonism). There are lamentably few places left to live. Do not live in most of the United States. Do not live near a factory or a retirement village. Try to live in a Catholic country, but do not live in the vicinity of a church, unless it is very old and beautiful and named for a saint with a past.
Live on a tree-lined street in a city with parks, views, broad boulevards, and excellent native cuisine. Live there a long time in love until you take everything for granted. Then move, leaving your lover behind because his skin is beginning to taste salty.
Take up an occupation that requires little regimen. Move to a small apartment by yourself. Drink large quantities of alcoholic beverages. Lose control. Speak to strangers in strange bars. Follow them home by taxi or on foot whether or not you’re invited. Taste their skin. Lie to them. Lie to yourself. Dream. forget your dreams. Live for the moment. Think that the scent of the spring air reminds you of someone you left behind.
Turn suddenly without warning, in public at a voice like his voice. Eat. Drink. Be merry, for tomorrow you die, and the next day too. Receive a telegram. Follow its directions to a graveyard. Do not ask questions. Ever. Read the inscription on the headstone. Say the name aloud without moving your lips. Listen to the granite. touch it with your tongue. smell the dead flowers. Say: “The taste of your skin gives me reason to live.” See if you mean it. Leave in tears. Develop an irrational appetite for salt. Have neurotic dreams. Remember your dreams.
 “Machupichu” Vincent Martinez
The longest days in the world are those when you have to wait for someone who hasn’t told you exactly when they’re coming.
at loose ends
the morning is damp and warm
gulf winds blowing
against the Balcones Escarpment
that is our border with the hill country,
beginning its rise mid-city,
seen from here on the first slopes as a green valley
high-rise offices and hotels jutting from the forest
and, somewhere, under the trees
the spanish governor’s palace
and six blocks from there the Alamo,
all this to set the scene of a city between
two geologies and two environments -
to the south low oak-covered hills
rolling softly to the flat coastal plains,
treeless but for mesquite, imported in the dung
of longhorns brought by Captain King from Mexico
- along with the vaqueros who over generations became, Kineros,
bred, born, raised, educated, employed married and buried
within the vast coastal expanse of the ranch -
in the summer gulf winds sweep across these plains
and rolling hills to bring us warm, humid mornings
and hot, wet days and nights before they bump against
the rougher hills north of the city and stall on top of us
dead, hot, smothering days under a fierce western sun...
and in the winter, gulf winds blown back
by strong, frigid air pushed across the Rockies
from Canada and further north,
sweeping down from the hills laying on the city
weeks of blue crystal skies, cool days and cold nights -
relief from the rugged rock-covered hills
for those of us who hate the heat
~~~
why, the reader might ask,
all this meteorological, geological and historical instruction
at a time when poetry is the order of the day
because, the poet responds,
i am bored, at loose ends, waiting, possibly all day
for the city inspectors to come
and approve the work on my new central air system -
feeling like one of those lonely and bored old people who sit at home all day
fixated on the weather or, like an old aunt of mine
sitting in her easy chair listening all day to a police scanner,
probably knowing more in the end
about crime in the city than the police chief
~~~
9:19 a.m. maybe hours to go before i can escape...
i guess i’ll go switch on the Weather Channel
too late to buy a police scanner
 “Breath Felt” Vincent Martinez
Next, I have something a little different, song lyrics by Andrew Bird for one of the songs on his latest CD release, The Mysterious Production of Eggs.(I've been corrected - it's not his latest album, but three albums back - still good)
Bird, born in 1973, is an American musician, singer, songwriter, and multi-instrumentalist. He was born in Chicago and currently spends his time between there and a farm near the town of Elizabeth in northwest Illinois. He has mastered several instruments and is musically proficient on others, including violin, guitar, mandolin, whistling, and glockenspiel, which allows him to record his music mostly on his own.
His lyrics, which I like very much, just skip along, taking the listener along for the ride, until all of a sudden he finds himself in a place he never intended to be, such as, in these lyrics, finding himself self listening to a song about some kind of might-be serial killer.
Fake Palendromes
my dewy-eyed disney bride, what has tried swapping your blood with formaldehyde? monsters? whiskey-plied voices cried fratricide! jesus don't you know that you could've died (you should've died) with the monsters that talk, monsters that walk the earth and she's got red lipstick and a bright pair of shoes and she's got knee high socks, what to cover a bruise she's got an old death kit she's been meaning to use she's got blood in her eyes, in her eyes for you she's got blood in her eyes for you certain fads, stripes and plaids, singles ads they run you hot and cold like a rheostat, i mean a thermostat so you bite on a towel hope it won't hurt too bad my dewy-eyed disney bride, what has tried swapping your blood with formaldehyde? what monsters that talk, monsters that walk the earth and she says i like long walks and sci-fi movies if you're six foot tall and east coast bred some lonely night we can get together and i'm gonna tie your wrists with leather and drill a tiny hole into your head
 “Words Like Birds” Vincent Martinez
As promised, here is Alphabet City, a new poem by Alex Stolis, beginning, as you might have guessed, with “Aa.”
Alphabet City
For J
Allure
without your voice, the moon is a pale version of the truth
Avenue
let me draw a map of your body trace every curve and circle every scar
Arithmetic
let’s break the day in two and watch our shadows drape the horizon
Aubade
when the sun is too tired to sink you can sing her to sleep
Bb
She’s shambolic; a calculated wreck, all legs and long hair waiting for the bottom to drop out and the top to level off. Remember what we used to say- the last one to learn is the first one to lose.
Caress
one touch and the dreams we had are forgotten
Cache
clouds steal the sun, we’re left with small change and no way out
Coy
you are a bird with a broken wing who sings outside my window
Confluence
our words are swept into the river past remorse and beyond grief
Dd
It’s the end of the line. Light is muffled and not a goddamn cop in sight when you really need one. But we are not afraid of trouble. We are rolling thunder. We are the chosen ones baptized in the wet dew of morning.
onetwothree- sinning is for sinners get ready to pull the trigger and walk away before the body hits the ground- fourfivesix
Ebbed
One day the earth will slow, I’ll lay a row of sticks on the ground; one for each day you’ve been gone
Effortless
In the time it takes for a match to burn my fingertips, a bird arcs over the sun
Élan
All the lovely girls are lined up in stereo, the pavement shimmers and even with our backs to the wall we can see where we’ve been
Equilibrium
One mistake and one promise adds up to every star in a slate gray sky; you cross your fingers behind your back as you kiss me good-bye
Ff
The all night girls dress up for the all night boys and the all night boys they got it bad.
she is free speech and ready to fight anyone who will listen. there is closing time, after party burnout time, love, hate and muscle, over played hands and underhanded plays. she takes a slow sip of her drink, meditates on a tear in her stocking; he feels the cool burn of metal against his forehead.
Gorgeous
Our voices do not change fast enough for the wind; I love the taste of your hair when it rains
Grapple
Two doors down the music is just loud enough to feel. I wake up alone, the shadow of your face fades from the pillow
Genuine
You are the wind, the rain that falls into my open door
Green
The tree holds its breath for spring; we begin and begin again, never forgetting how we end.
Hh
It’s a Holy Roller show and he’s the Jesus of cool - mirrored shades, black buckle boots and a thick roll of scratch. She’s always had the right of way, believes talk is cheap when you pay in advance for all the answers. Togetherness is the last refuge of the lonesome but this night is already in ruins and no amount of dying will bring it back to life.
Innocence
between the slow ticks of an engine cooling a kiss is stolen
Illuminate
when light hits your hair, it breaks into silence
Intangible
the familiar taste of clouds to a hungry sky
Iridescent
when the stars are ready to fall we catch each other in the smallest lies
Jj
Wasp Nest
She’s an outright unbeliever straining to break the pull of gravity, likes to live dangerously close to the fire. She’s kept up by visions. Ashes. Grey bones. Brittle winds, broken trees. One day she’ll bust out and make her way across the desert, no good riddance, no good byes, no looking back.
Koan
a swirl of dust, a calliope of sound, everything becomes clear in a storm
Kiss
your hand brushes mine, ragged clouds leave us empty
Kinetic
one, two, three breaths and we are over
Knockdown
fear is a caged bird
Ll
Temporary like Achilles
She was a kaleidoscope. She loved the song Amazing Grace. We sang it together on the afternoon we thought it was too late, too late to go back, too late to turn around. The room is empty. I can hear her walk, can hear the ice crackle on the window. She told me I could be her temporary lover, her very last one and only. Told her she could be my ghost.
Murmur
the sound of summer as it tilts and brushes against your skin
Memory
a rusted Chevy, two warm beers forgotten in the shade; sunburned shoulder against my face
Momentum
I watch your hips sway as you walk to your car, one more dream to remember when I sleep
Magical
the wind changes color as clouds disappear into a familiar voice, shy and insistent
Nn
She tells everyone a different story about the scar: it was a fall when she was five years old, she let go of father’s hand, walked into an accident, realized too late; it happened at birth, a gift from god, an unpaid bill, a reminder of how things twist away from the center. Small crimes of the flesh are better committed together and in silence; she paints a landscape created by two bodies as they sleep, careful to brush over the indifference that breaks with morning.
Opportunity
with every breath inhaled another chance is swallowed by the past
Ocher
a neon light stutters, a cherry sparks on the side walk. he reaches for her hand, wishes for dry earth, a blank sun and green grass
Overwrought
he can’t remember the sound of her voice, the streetlamp stands guard; a scarecrow, straw-brained and helpless
Osmosis
a paper airplane floats from the fourth floor and hits the curb as she flags a cab; another lost suicide note
Pp
sangre de stephanie
valium, vicoden, benzedrine, whiskey glass, judgment land. hips square, backed up against reasonable doubt. she’s a victim, she’s a martyr,
told her i was blind. took me along for the ride anyway. white cross, percoset, vodka. she tells me the best crucifixions take place after midnight.
Quicken
He tells her each scar comes with a story: its own beginning, a ragged middle but you get to make up the ending
Quotidian
memory, recollection, a dress, remembrance, reminiscence, memorize, perfume, memento, memorial, rain, reminder, souvenir, token
Quorum
we are all things moved by color bound by ashes and dust, left stranded together all alone
Quash
original sin is a secret best kept from the sun and earth
Rr
She wants to burn one or two bridges but doesn’t want to take the blame. Tells me about unused stars scattered over a ploughed field, God’s own orphans, she says. Back then her name was Sunny. She liked the night, T’s and Blues and men who talked in their sleep. Insists she doesn’t two-time anymore, believes making love is another form of adoption. I swear, next time I won’t be the one to re-create her misery.
Shamble
she has become a shadow, a shell upturned on the beach, waiting for a wave to set her free
Serpentine
once, when i was young, the streets were full of absolution and my fist could split the future wide open
Sorcery
there is no magic in dying
Shallow
i watch her undress in the light cast from the street, she smiles when I put out my cigarette
Tt
The sunset is not pretty. In another lifetime I would have argued but she looks so radiant, I can forgive the way she manipulated the past to her favor. The sky is a color that defies sadness. She puts away the cigarettes, tears up the picture, traces my scar with the tip of her finger. She’s right. The sunset is ugly, dawn tastes like burnt rubber and the ocean will never repay its debt. She tells me all my plans will go up in a pillar of memories. Those pale women will never believe your story. She wraps her leg around mine and I know the future rides in the color of her hair, the tiny crack in her lower lip holds my fortune.
Undertow
a bee flits from flower to flower, i walk back to my car, wonder what happened to the gun
Unrequited
I see her silhouette through frosted glass, legs crossed high ready to start a revolution
Ubiquitous
he knows where he can find her but doesn’t always know the way there
Umber
she knows the gravity of innocence, the impermanence of flesh and bone
Vv
She slips from her strapless dress, the tangled mess of hair is smoke from a filter-less cigarette. Mistakes are not made, they are crafted origami swans; small white wings, a blank stare from blind eyes.
Wanderlust
Wish you were here. Wish I was too. Windows rolled all the way down Johnny Cash on the radio, open road and clean skies, endless possibilities, endless
Wistful
whatthefuck just happened: two seconds ago nothing- now the door’s busted down and you’re gone
Walkabout
she carries a leaf in her pocket, the one he gave her; said its shape reminded her of two hearts
Wounded
Yeah. Right. There.
Xx
The last two dreams she had drifts in & out of focus: a red wagon overturned in the yard one wheel laughing at an oak; a bullet glints seductively on linoleum. Moonlight cuts a halo over her. Two strikes on a match and I can see the outline of her lips.
Yellowness
a pale gold circle is left where her doubt used to be
Yang
when it’s the end of the line you can’t go wrong with sayin’ you ain’t seen nuthin’
Yield
let my words be your skin
Yes
but not at all
Zz
For a little while we’re in another world. Not afraid of the dark, unfazed by what lurks at the bottom of the well. A handful of dirt. Two more drinks. There are words and there is flight and she believes she can make the world start turning in the other direction until the wheels come flying off one by one. One more chance, baby, that’s all she needs. One. Her hair is painted a pale shade of blue, her eyes a cried out red. She loves me. She cured me. She’s a haiku that courses through my veins.
 “Chente’s Hente” Vincent Martinez
Now I have the title poem by Jane Hirshfield, from her book Of Gravity & Angels, published in 1988 by Wesleyan University Press.
Hirshfield was born in New York City and received her bachelor's degree from Princeton University in the school's first graduating class to include women. She later studied at the San Francisco Zen Center, including three years of monastic practice at Tassaiara Zen Mountain Center. Hirshfield has worked as a freelance writer, editor, and translator. She has taught at the University of California, Berkeley, University of San Francisco, and as the Elliston Visiting Poet at the University of Cincinnati. She has also taught at many writers conferences and served as both core and associate faculty in the Bennington Master of Fine Arts Writing Seminars. Of Gravity & Angels was her second book. She has published many more since.
Of Gravity & Angels
And suddenly, again, I want the long road of your thigh under my hand, your well-traveled thigh, you salt-slicked & and come-slicked thigh, and I want the taste of you, slaking, under my tongue (that place of riding desire, my tongue) and I want all the unnameable, soft, and yielding places, belly & neck & the place wings would rise from if we were angels, and we are, and I want the rising regions of you shoulder & cock & tongue & breathing & suddenness of you opening all fontanel, all desire, the whole thing beginning for the first time again, the first, until I wonder then how is it we even know which part we are, even know the ground that lifts us, raucous, out of ourselves, as the rising sound of a summer dawn when all of it joins in.
She is a very sensuous poet. Here’s one more.
I Have No Use for Virgins
I have no use for virgins - give me the cup with a chipped lip, whose handle is glued back on and whose glaze is dark from use. Let many men and women drink from us before we drink - I taste their breasts on your breast, you cover their blaze between my legs.
 “Peruvian Landscape #2” Vincent Martinez
Nine out of ten household injuries are the result of bored old men trying to do something they should have left alone.
chipping away
i have a five-foot stump in my back yard - reminder of a tree i had cut down six months ago
saved the stump
thought, who knows when i might need a good stump
this morning i began the process of trying to sculpt something out of it
i know nothing about sculpting, have no idea what i'm trying to sculpt
instead i just chip away, thinking i might find something inside the stump not obvious from the outside
it's possible i might find the sculptor within me
but more likely i'll find only the most difficult way to remove a five-foot stump from your backyard
either way chipping wood is a most uninteresting thing to do, leaving lots of time for the mind to roam
who knows what my mind might find in its roaming
maybe there's a poem in that stump
 “Kristi” Vincent Martinez
My next poem is by Lynn Crosbie, from her book, Miss Pamela’s Mercy, published in 1992 by Coach House Press.
Crosbie is a Canadian poet, novelist and teacher at the Ontario College of Art and Design University. This was her first book and has published eight additional books since, the most recent, in 2006, Liar.
Starvation Diary
Monday
the last thing I ate was bananas smashed with brown sugar. it does not seem like a significant last meal, and I imagine prisoners considering this. that food was last Tuesday. I am not hungry. it is like a suicide dressing herself beforehand. the care of buttoning a woolen sweater, the difficult clasp of a bracelet. only to be crushed under the metal of a subway car and find an eye that’s become a brooch and matted sleeves and shoes adrift with tendons and toes. does the man think of an omelette he once ate with the sun in the window. does she choose a craving, like death, something cool on a hot day.
Tuesday
I feel my stomach shrinking into the size of an embryo I had an abortion once. and imagined somehow slinking through the hospital and removing it. from the formaldehyde jar and breathing into its cellular lungs. the girl grows in spirit, and slips her hand in mine, she wears make-up that looks starry and clear. my stomach would never near my womb, which had evaporated and I heard, I swear to it God, the placenta dissolve and shower through my pores. she knows me and my pain. she knows my body is mine. you are too thin, my daughter. in your cloudy nightdress and your moon above me,
Wednesday
he always said, why are you eating this, or that, popcorn, celery, mushrooms, he would enter me like a sightless bandit, shooting me with foam and rubber. he drew black lines along my stretch- marks when I slept, and ground his fist under my ribs. does this hurt? there are a hundred women on the walls whose hair sprouted in leafy gardens. whose thighs were needles, in me he left a scar. I said Charlotte, you are not alive. I called you Ruby, a jewel, a flame-coloured dress I burned.
Thursday
eating keeps you alive. I was a cow grazing in milkweed. I was a pigeon with its beak in the garden. I am flying to the sun.
Friday
I bless the women who live alone. in their rippling wattled frames and choose to ascend beyond. who skirt the banquets and decline the lemons and zucchinis, sweet genitals to the mouths open shiny on magazines I’ve seen. I’ve seen that sickness of living through. when we once held each other on the linoleum floor and I saw a horizon in his collarbone and a prayer in every beauty. she is splayed to the door watching my skin fall from my bones. she has seen my hair descend to the ground in a grey wave. I bless the women who have borne the thoughts, like cameos of nausea, and lived. I have begun to sleep. locked in a cat’s circle, spine a metal awning.
Saturday
sugar tea and triangles of cheese
these are the things that my hollow rib s would stick to. these are the things that would fill my bloodless veins.
Sunday
we are infants, skeletal and barely conscious. the wind, the smell of wood and a moving curtain. this poem is the last in my life. a life that moved in a circle. when he swung me around. when my legs opened and creaked. when i last wished we had lived forever - in a flesh castle and amniotic moat. and felt he sure, diurnal movements, of the immaculate earth.
 “Abuelo” Vincent Martinez
Doesn’t seem to me like too much to ask for.
don’t bury me on the lone prairieeee: a modest proposal
they keep finding these ancient elaborate tombs all over the world
the latest in Mexico, 2,700 years old, the oldest, by several centuries in all of Mesoamerica
at the apex of a pyramid a tomb, four skeletons in all - a Mesoamerican big shot of some kind inside the tomb, coated in red pigment and adorned with hundreds of jade ornaments and accompanied in his tomb by two slaves, adult and child, sacrificed to watch over the big shot, a personage apparently too important to be setting off on a journey into the dreadworlds on his own
right outside the tomb another skeleton, a woman most likely, also highly adorned like the big shot, maybe mrs. big shot, wedding vows at the time perhaps a little more lasting than today
all this well and good, i suppose, if you’re the type that prefers your final rot atop a pyramid
me, nothing so grand as all that -
i will be cremated, my image etched on a platinum plate, along with some very obscure poem i will write before i die, the plate then dropped from an airplane on some transcontinental flight
so that post-American remnants multi-generations hence will find it as they trudge on their burros across the sandy coastal deserts of Iowa
my benediction to the future...
could be even they will worship me
 “Bacon” Vincent Martinez
Here’s a poem by Joshua Clover, from his first book Poems - Madonna anno domini, published in 1997 by the Louisiana State University Press and winner of the 1996 Walt Whitman Award of The Academy of American Poets.
Clover, a poet, critic, author and journalist born in 1962, is a graduate of Boston University and the Iowa Writer’s Workshop. He is an Associate Professor of English Literature and Critical Theory at the University of California, Davis and was Holloway poet-in-residence at the University of California, Berkeley in 1999-2000.
Union Pacific
That about which the Buddhists teach That the certain life belongs to the uncertain, That life in which nothing belongs to us for even The length of a century, which is nothing: Om. The life in which all streets are named for thieves,, Trees and thieves, the life in which the thief-and-tree Is the sign of the West, the life in which there are Seven spheres extending out to heaven from the Union Pacific switching yard in Wyoming near midsummer, The heaven we are not allowed to see in this life: Om. The life which spent a third of a century maneuvering me, Solitary, rouged in the fine dust of the Chimney Rock Ranch, To the end of Ivinson Street in Laramie near the Continental Divide where the railroad companies planted Their feet in a bracework of steel and cracked open The West the way a bear, a holy animal (first thought Only thought) might crack open a Buddhist, By skull and by ribcage, the white containments: Om. From the Buddhists we learn that a holy man may own Half a wooden bowl and replace it every seven years, About seven bowls a century, about how long the life Of the great railroads lasted, the Life of Seven bowls In which you couldn’t see the forest for the thieves: Om. Yesterday, I watched a pair of children taking off The red Chimney Rock dust in a stone bowl Rifted by a petty cataract of water, one basin for the two of them, just the right amount, they were flying From rock to rock, they were almost oblivious To the story of the West, it was the Fourth of July, It seemed possible they could be damaged, The parents were watching too, through a camera, From the corner of an eye, view within a view, The second thought which cradles the first thought Like a bowl inside a owl, four times more Than I am allowed even here, in the other life
 “Orange Grey” Vincent Martinez
After this week of long poems, I’m finishing with several short poem i wrote some years ago, a demonstration to those who doubt that there was a time when I could tell a story in less that three pages. All the poems were written in the late nineties or early naughts and all were published in one place or another.
The exception is the third piece, true romance, which, though published in the late nineties, was written in the late sixties.
day break
clear skies and early dew make the pastures glisten under the pale falling moon of day break
summer in south texas
summer in south texas, horned toads and rattlesnakes negotiate for every piece of shade
true romance
crick-et crick-et crick-et
cricking love songs to a crotchety moon
po-et po-et po-et
yippi ky yay
cowboys i know ride the range in helicopters but they still wear boots and are still bow-legged
looking good
you come into the room with your new lover like Ken and Barbie, a perfect matched set of glowing grace and beauty, so self-confidently put-together gorgeous that all the light in the room seems to gather in your presence
did I look that good with you on my arm, and if I did, how did you ever leave me...
love in the summer
love in the summer is a sweaty, sloshy thing
not like winter when chill winds bite parts uncovered
once in mississippi
once, in mississippi, I saw a cotton field, pretty, I thought, till I had to pick it
the smell of summer ended
the first cold front of fall, and all the stores are packed with bundled shoppers smelling of moth balls
 “Peruvian Landscape” Vincent Martinez
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Rocks & Hard Places Friday, May 21, 2010
V.5.3.
I have lots of good poets this week, some of my favorites, in fact, including my featured poet for week, Don Schaeffer.
Don's recent poetry has been published in The Loch Raven Review, The Cartier Street Review, The Writers Publishing, Lilly Lit, Burning Effigy Press, Understanding Magazine, Melange, Tryst, Quills and others. His first book of poetry, Almost Full was published by Owl Oak Press early in the summer of 2006. He holds a Ph.D. in Psychology from City University of New York (1975) and lives in Winnipeg, Manitoba.
The poems he is letting me use this week will be in his next book, A Wish for My Dreamer, due to be released in late Summer.
Unfortunately, don’t have much in the way of art this week, especially compared to Katie Sottak’s work last week, just some re-rendered photos from a hike my son and I took up Enchanted Rock several months ago. As I’ve said a number of times, I’m always looking for artists or photographers who can send me twenty five images to feature in an issue. That’s much simpler for me than trying to figure out something new to do, again and again, to old photos.
And, with that, here’s our grand band of poetically adept poeticos for this week.
Naomi Shihab Nye
Even at War
Grieving Ring
For the 500th Dead Palestinian, Itisam Bozieh
Shoulders
Don Schaeffer
A Wish for my Dreamer
Me
imagine you are almost one of a kind
Carol Connolly
Without a Hat
Fantasy
Man’s Best Friend
The Index
Me
how reporters helped me write better poems
Don Schaeffer
Visitations
Tony Barnstone
The 167th Psalm of Elvis
Me
with Basho in his garden
Don Schaeffer
The Arrival
Belle Waring
Back to Catfish
What Hurts
Don Schaeffer
The First Inkling of Need
Me
Guest Speaker
Gary Soto
Career Counseling
Pagan Life
Me
Reba for Congress
Don Schaeffer
1875
Blaise Cendrars
Bijou Concert
Sunsets
White Suit
Orion
The Equator
Crossing the Line
Sunday
Eggs
Butterfly
Rio de Janeiro
Mictorio
Sao Paulo
Me
frog-state
John Bandi
6 haiku
Margaret Chula
4 haiku
Cid Corman
4 haiku
Patricia Donegan
4 haiku
Diane DiPrima
Death Poems in April
Me
notes from a grounded witchdoctor
I start this week with several poems by Naomi Sihab Nye, from her book, Red Suitcase, published by BOA Editions in 1994.
Born in 1952, Nye is an award-winning is a poet, songwriter, and novelist. Of mixed heritage, her father is Palestinian and her mother American. Although she regards herself as a "wandering poet", frequently traveling abroad on USIA-sponsored Arts American speaking tours through the Middle East and Asia, she refers to San Antonio as her home.
Even at War
Loose in his lap, the hands.
And always a necktie,
as some worlds are made complete
by single things.
Graveled voice,
bucket raised on old ropes.
You know how a man can get up,
get dressed, and think
the world is waiting for him?
At night darkness knits
a giant cap to hold the dreams in.
A wardrobe of neckties with slanted stripes.
Outside oranges are sleeping, eggplants,
fields of wild sage. An order
from the government said,
You will no longer pick this sage
that flavors your whole life.
And all the hands smiled.
Tonight the breathing air carries
headlines that will cross the ocean
by tomorrow. Bar the door.
The Grieving Ring
When word of his death arrived
we sat in a circle for days
crying or not crying
long ago in the other country
girls balanced buckets
on their heads
now the old sweet water
rose from the spring
to swallow us
brothers shrank
children grew old
it felt fine to say nothing
about him
or something small
the way he carried
oranges and falafel
in his pockets
the way he was always
slightly mad
what he said to each
the last time
we saw him
hurt the worst
those unwritten letters
banging each head
till it felt bruised
now he would stand at the mirror
knotting his tie
for the rest of so many lives
I think I’ve used this next poem before, but bears re-reading - maybe once a week or so until the little deaths are ended forever.
For the 500th Dead Palestinian, Itisam Bozieh
Little sister Ibtisam,
our sleep flounders, our sleep tugs
the cord of your name.
Dead at 13, for staring through
the window into a gun barrel
which did not know you wanted to be
a doctor.
I would smooth your life in my hands,
pull you back. Had I stayed in your land,
I might have been dead too,
for something simple like staring
or shouting what was true
and getting kicked out of school.
I wandered stony afternoons
owning al their vastness.
Now I would give them to you,
guiltily, you, not me.
Throwing this ragged grief into the street,
scissoring news stories free from the page
but they live on my desk with letters, not cries.
How do we carry the endless surprise
of all our deaths? Becoming doctors
for one another. Arab, Jew,
instead of guarding tumors of pain
as the they hold us upright?
People in other countries speak easily
of being early, late.
Some will live to be eighty.
Some who never saw it
will not forget your face.
Shoulders
A man crosses the street in rain,
stepping gently, looking two times north and south,
because his son is asleep on his shoulder.
No car must splash him.
No car drive too near to his shadow.
This man carries the world’s most sensitive cargo
but he’s not marked.
Nowhere does his jacket say FRAGILE,
HANDLE WITH CARE.
His ear fills up with breathing.
He hears the hum of a boy’s dream
deep inside him.
We’re not going to be able
to live in this world
if we’re not willing to do what he’s doing
with one another.
The road will only be wide.
The rain will never stop falling.
Here’s my first poem from this week’s featured poet, Don Schaeffer.
A Wish for My Dreamer
Watching yourself
in the early morning
adding plots to your dreams.
Like time was a set of tinker-toy blocks,
set your dreams in motion.
Make up good dreams,
I say to her
as we are wishing good night.
Please don't frighten yourself, my dear.
Make dreams that give you joy.
Here’s my first poem of the week as well.
This came to mind as I read that proof, in the form of intermingled DNA, had been found that at some point during the ten to twenty thousand years that modern humans and Neanderthals had lived together some interbreeding had occurred.
For understandable reasons, the idea that I most likely carried a trace of a Neanderthal ancestor made me see them in a whole new light, and, for the first time I considered their ending days, the extinction (perhaps the only one) of a self-conscious species.
This poem was the result of that thinking.
imagine you are almost one of a kind
imagine
you are almost one of a kind
one
of just a few of your kind
remaining
brute,
the other kind
calls you,
but you have dreams
and you can see your dreams
and all the dreams
of your kind
fading
until there is no more like you
to dream them -
no more like you
to fear your gods, no more like
you to hold a loved one close
to hold a blood fresh child,
no more like you to dance as new day
breaks the sky
no more like
you
but you have planted your seed
so that some part like you
can carry on
you have planted your seed
among the other kind,
the ones almost like your kind,
the ones who hunt you, kill you,
break your bones to suck the marrow,
to suck from your bones the sustenance
of your life, to leave your bones
to be covered with tens of millennia
of dust, until you are forgotten
imagine
your are he,
the last of the circle,
all others gone like rocks
on a hillside,
imagine
lying naked
in summer grass,
a pale shadow
under the full bright eye
of the moon - listening
to the sounds of a flowing creek,
the water,
the mating frogs,
sounds of the trees
and the wind
imagine
a time
when these are the
only sounds of
night -
the water, the trees,
the wind, the call of a predator,
hungry,
howling in
the hills
the only sounds of life
around you
and you are otherwise
alone
imagine all this
the final nights of another kind of man -
a kind of man with dreams and inner life
much like our own, another kind of man
who knows time is
ending
a man who lives now
only in stories
of trolls
and other ogres
and in some tiny part
of ourselves
descendants,
most of us, of the keeper
beneath the
bridge
I have several poems by Carol Connolly from her book, Payments Due - Onstage Offstage, published by Midwest villages & Voices in 1995.
Connolly, an ardent feminist, was born, raised and educated in he Irish Catholic section of Saint Paul, Minnesota. Mother of seven children, she began to write poetry at the age of forty. She has worked as a columnist for the Saint Paul Pioneer Press, the Minneapolis-Saint Paul magazine and Minnesota’s Journal of Law and Politics, as well as a commentator for the local NBC affiliate. She has served as co-chair of the Minnesota Women’s Political Caucus, chair of the Saint Paul Human Rights Commission, and chair of the affirmative-action committee of the Minnesota Racing Commission.
She was appointed Saint Paul’s first Poet Laureate in 2009. Payments Due, apparently her only book of poetry, was adapted as a stage production and presented in Los Angeles in 1n 1993.
Without a Hat
If you are
not a blessed virgin
but an ordinary woman
full of ordinary dreams
on an ordinary night,
full of wine and expectation
when the moon is high,
you might find a handsome athlete
and dance slow with him,
sway a little to his song,
and go with him
for just a little while.
But should he gather others,
make an all-American trio
who lock you with their
music in a plain room,
taunt you
and ridicule you
as they abuse you,
take their turns
all night, all night,
at hurting you so bad,
so bad,
all that will remain in you is
on scream
and you will cry
for help.
Help.
They you will be required
in extraordinary ways,
again and yet again,
to explain
why you
are just an ordinary woman
and not a blessed virgin.
Fantasy
If my breasts were
as sharp and pointed
as the pyramids,
I would use them
to cut
red x’s
in his face.
Man’s Best Friend
In the center
of the Empire
men dress in fine ensembles
and walk the dog.
They bend beneath curbs,
gather warm dog excrement
in clear bags pulled
from fine silk pockets.
Only the finest.
This is the center
of the Empire,
where money
talks
and dogs are walked
on Gucci leashes
and dog dirt
is collected.
E is for Empire.
Its excellence
is elegant
but excrement
exists.
In piles.
The Index
If you shake your finger at me again,
I will bit it off and hold the tip
in my teeth until I die.
People with
police power
will find it.
Trace you.
You will be
arrested.
In Duluth.
I don’t suppose this next thing is much of a poem, but i wrote it and found it kind of interesting as I did, and what the heck else am I going to do with it if I don’t put it right here.
how reporters help me write poems
for many years i was
the go-to
for area media wanting
a local slant
on business and economic
news that was rarely good
TV, newspaper
and radio interviews
several times a month,
usually covering
the same story, breaking news
mostly, sometimes a reporter,
either on assignment
or on their own initiative,
looking to do a more
far-reaching story
newspaper
and radio were usually done
from my offices, relaxed
conversations, mostly, with
reporters i knew and had worked with
often
TV was different and more varied,
taped and live
i did a few minutes
on a local morning news and talk show
two or three days a week,
and several times, when news broke
too late for reporters to get down
to my office for tape, i did live interviews
with the anchor, behind the anchor
desk - 3 to 5 on-air minutes
to respond to 4 to 5 questions
from the anchor
i learned how to do those
without embarrassing myself
by doing taped interviews
a couple of times a month -
just a reporter,
a cameraman, and me, getting
the interview done in three basic
set-ups, a wide shot of the reporter
and me talking, a close-up of me,
talking, and a medium shot of the reporter
talking, usually taken from behind me
- all sound was dubbed later -
two lessons i learned - the first,
and most basic - never piss off a reporter
because, in the end, they will define you
and a happy reporter is much nicer
than an angry one
many reporters, especially the new ones,
came into the interview
already set on the story they will write
and there was no sense in arguing with them
about what the story ought to be
the better course
was to find a way to tell the story
i wanted told within the context
of the story they wanted to write
and the secret to doing that
is part of the second important thing
i learned -
i knew that even a ten minute interview
with me would end up
with no more than 45 seconds
of me talking, so what i had to do
was toss in, throughout the 10 minutes,
little bits and pieces so good i knew
they weren't going to be able to them leave out
of my 45 seconds
it’s the power and art of the quote
all reporters are expected
by their editors to find the quotes
they need for the story - a story
without quotes, to many editors,
is an editorial, not a news story -
i learned to see that my job,
as someone with a story to tell,
was to give reporters the quote they needed,
even if wasn't the quote they wanted -
and what’s a poem?
a memorable, logically connected, imagistic
construct of words and phrases -
in reporting terms, a good quote
and that’s how doing news interviews
showed me the way to become a better poet
(except in the case of this poem,
which is more like
an instruction booklet
- in four languages -
of how to build and repair a
diesel engine)
Here’s my second poem from featured poetDon Schaeffer, a piece, as I read it, to a lost past and a difficult future.
Visitations
When I think of Joyce tonight,
I'm subject to the justice of the void.
I can wish like a child
but it will not come true.
Winter is
the best time to think of it
when my coat is not enough
to keep out the truth of the cold.
I can plead
that I had no choice but I merely watch
another tightening of the vice
and listen to the alarm drawing blood in my ear.
My denials
are like a child's eager wishes.
The elders, faces darkened,
shake their heads.
He knows,
they all say,
deep inside he knows,
as I pound my fists on the bed.
The next poem is by Tony Barnstone from Signals, the 2005 Winter Solstice issue of Runes, A Review of Poetry.
Barnstone is Professor of English at Whittier College. Born in Middletown, Connecticut, and raised in Bloomington, Indiana, he lived for years in Greece, Spain, Kenya and China before taking his Masters in English and Creative Writing and Ph.D. in English Literature at U.C. Berkeley. His poetry, translations, essays on poetics, and fiction have appeared in dozens of American literary journals and he has won numerous fellowships and poetry awards, including the National Endowment for the Arts, the California Arts Council, the Pushcart Prize, the Paumanok Poetry Award, the Randall Jarrell Poetry Prize, The Sow's Ear Poetry Contest, the Milton Dorfman Poetry Prize, the National Poetry Competition (Chester H. Jones Foundation), the Pablo Neruda Prize in Poetry, the Cecil Hemley Award, and the Poetry Society of America. In 2006 he won the Benjamin Saltman Award in Poetry for his manuscript The Golem of Los Angeles, which was published by Red Hen Press in 2007. He won the John Ciardi Prize in Poetry in 2008 for Tongue of War and won the grand prize in the Strokestown International Poetry Festival, in Strokestown, Ireland, in 2008.
The 167th Psalm of Elvis
Blessed are the marble breasts of Venus,
those ancient miracles, for they are upright and milk white
and they point above the heads of the crowd in the casino.
Blessed are the crowds that lay, and whose reflections
sway in the polish of her eggshell eyes.
from they move shimmers and flights of birds
as they circle the games
and they are beautiful and helpless.
Bless the fast glances that handle the waitress,
bless her miniskirt toga and the flame-gold scotch,
and bless the gamblers who gaze at the stage.
Remember also the dancer and remember her dance,
her long neck arched like a wild white goose,
the tassels on her nipples that shoot like sparks,
and bless the legs and bless the breasts
for they are fruit and honey
and they are generous to the eyes.
Have mercy on my wallet, for the dollars I punch into the slot,
and grace the wheels swapping clubs and hearts.
Mercy on me too, as I stumble as if in a hashish haze
watching the reels spin away, for I am a blown fuse
and I need someone to bless me before it’s too late.
Honor the chance in a million, the slot machine jolting,
the yellow light flashing, honor the voice that calls jackpot,
and the coins that crush into the brushed steel tray,
for there is a time for winning and a time for losing
and if you cast your bread upon the waters
you will find it again after many days.
Pity the crowd around the blessed winner
all patting his back as if it rubs off,
this juice, this force, this whatever
that might save them from their own cursed luck.
And pit the poor winner whose hand claws back
into his bucket of coins and who cannot walk away,
because he’d do anything for the feeling
he had when the great patter rose from the chaos
of cherries and lemons and diamonds and stars
and he knew for the moment he was blessed.
I woke up later than usual and was feeling very rushed and harassed, entirely a matter of a habit of many years not yet broken even after years of retirement. I had no place to go, but it seemed I was still impatient to get there on time.
A mental slowdown was needed.
with Basho in his garden
driving
on I-10
at 7:45 a.m.
is like attending
a linear convention
of type-A personalities,
every one of them
the kind that sees every
little trip to the grocery as
a competition with everyone
else on the road between
home and the supermarket
sometimes i begin to feel
like that, the onset of an insanity
too common in our lives,
and i try to treat it with imaginings
of more peaceful times
and places,
like the little bamboo hut
students built
for the haiku master Basho
where he sometimes found peace
between his travels -
i join him in my mind,
kneeling with him in his garden
of high weeds, flowers
no one else wanted
until he, in his peace, found
their beauty - beauty not of color
or spread of stems, or grand blossoms,
but of their perverse
indifference to the gardner,
their tenacity and will to survive
and spread, their willingness to struggle
for place all others would deny them
useful traits, all,
for poets and philosophers
so like weeds we are
in the Queen’s formal gardens,
as Basho
might well have known
and treasured
And now another poem by featured poet Don Schaeffer. I particularly like this one, if you let me into your life, I will shake your world.
I like that
The Arrival
A human being
is a heavy weight.
You can't expect one
to arrive lightly.
Not like a feather,
not on tippy toes,
body behemoth
making great waves in its wake
A human being blasts everything.
Boom!
The big guns
in the harbor sound.
The weakest run.
If you will have me
I will change your life.
And I will join you
but only if you laugh.
I have two poems now by Belle Waring, from her book Refuge, winner of the 1989 Associated Writing Programs’ award in poetry, published in 1990 by the University of Pittsburgh Press.
Waring was bon in Virginia in 1951. She holds degrees in nursing and English. In 1988, she received her M.F.A. in Creative Writing at Vermont College. She is now on the Field Faculty of the Vermont College M.F.A. Program and also works as a registered nurse.
This is my first time to read her, and I do like her a lot.
Back to Catfish
The cafe with the hotwire
boys is where you are and me
I’m back to cooking catfish
with banana, disguised
as a Guadeloupan delicacy,
but it’s still its old ugly-snout
self. Now when you bon temps roulez,
you booze in a fancy French joint
where the ladies get menus
with no price list. My little sun
king, who knows when you’ll blow
in. A woman like me
with a fine arts degree
could have been a master
engraver. Counterfeiter.
Not the counterfeiter’s moll.
Sure. I’m back to cooking
catfish, a creature with purpose
in life, to sweep the creek bottom
clean as the moon.
I’m waiting for thee,
wearing this swamp green
shirt you left. I could never
just throw it away,
the color of a hangover. A bruise.
But I could start without you.
Scarf up bananafish by myself.
Clean this kitchen with your keepsake
shirt, scrub every bad business
I can reach. Go out for some middlebrow
cappuccino. Swing by the Tastee Diner
for some brawl-proof pie. I’ll smile
when I’m ready and feel
complete. Who knows who I might meet?
I could swim the night in my cherry Nova
and sweep down the state road
crossing the river
on its long goddamn way home.
What Hurts
is waking up flung cold across
the bed, right where I left myself, these eyes
spooked, like my father’s after a binge.
Just what the hell is he doing in my face?
I don’t booze. I’m not like him.
But that scared and blowzy stare
I recognize after this stark dream of looking
for Max, my hopeless ex, world without end.
Some nights my father spent in a cell
to sober up. I learned to sleep in my clothes.
Sentry. Night watch. Mother by a sickbed.
Doctor on call. No surprise. Ready for
a shit storm. Praying for a cool sunrise.
Now another piece by featured poet Don Schaeffer.
Very romantic this week is Don Schaeffer.
The First Inkling of Need
The gesture
is what amuses us
as it says
I am playing
I am not in time out
I have
not yet quit.
Watching the well washed
little boys in the table near the door
I see how they practice
gestures making sure for each other
they are vivid,
saying, I am playing
play with me.
Some day we will
be real members and this will count.
Don't leave me.
Here I am again, with more echos from a previous life.
guest speaker
i've been
a guest speaker
many times,
service club meetings,
business development seminars,
convention banquets, every such event where
all the speakers and other notables
sit at a long head table on top of a riser, while
attendees are spread out across the room
in tables of six or eight, watching
as those at the head table
are fed first,
watching every
bite bit, every chew
chewed, every sip slurped, every
slurp dripped, every
sliver of food dropped,
every flash of white
teeth in mouth-open chewing
always made me self-conscious
this noon,
eating my Popeye's drumsticks
at the kitchen table, two hungry dogs,
outside on the patio,
watching though the window, every bite
bit, every chew chewed
at least i won't have to give a speech
Here is another of my favorite poets, Gary Soto, with a poem from his book Junior College, published by Chronicle Books in 1997.
I’ve done Soto’s bio so often I’m just going to let you look it up yourself this time.
Career Counseling
The mortuary students, those vampires with cool fingers,
Would get good jobs, for the world was filled
With the dying - grandmothers needling
Their last doilies and workers with their caps
Feeding into industrial rollers.
The criminology students gathered
near the bike racks, their compound eyes
Behind sunglasses. They searched for trouble,
Their hands at their sides where, in three months,
Cold 45s would snuggle in oily holsters.
In college, I stayed away
From these future cops. In World Religions,
I considered the priesthood.
In geology, I considered lighting up the world,
The bang of two rocks.
I took speed reading,
The equivalent of 19 cups of coffee,
And enrolled in biology - Mendel crosswiring peas in pods.
The nursing students hurried with clipboards,
And one day I followed them,
Like a dog, like an insomniatic patient.
In junior college, I painted numbers on curbs,
The houses themselves as cold as tombstones.
I worked on my knees, right above the busy traffic
Of straight-ahead, no-bullshit ants.
I went from house to house, At the level
Of each porch I could reason this -
There was work for both mortuary and criminology students,
And somewhere in between the nurses were involved -
Their stethoscopes counting down the heartbeats.
I painted curbs and kept to myself.
One day, my counselor asked, What do yo want to be?
He asked this on
A day when student nurses eyed my crippled walk,
When a mortuary student asked if I could play dead
And let him count my teeth and broken bones.
The newly graduated cops were meaner
Than thugs. They scolded those
Who walked on our reseeded lawns,
Scolded those in wheelchairs and on crutches.
I should leave town, I told myself,
And would have given
Some of my teeth to travel to Ireland to Scotland,
Somewhere cool. Or like a ghost,
I would have lived inside a tree
And come out only when it was dark, thus safe,
Untouchable as smoke. But I left his office
And returned to the curbs. With both knees wet
And sunlight bright as scissors,
I lowered my eyes and thought of the divisions of labor -
Me with house numbers, the vocational students
With good job, and, in my shadow, ants
With our human plunder descending into creaturely holes.
Can’t resist; here’s another one.
Pagan Life
In history of religion,
I read that three-foot pagans carried five-foot spears,
Worshiped trees and hundred-pound pumpkins,
And after week-long hunts returned to their village
To throw their women in the dirt
And get some under the sun.
I licked my fingers and turned the page,
Looking for pictures. I found none,
Only more words. The bell rang,
and I left the class, 5’8”, with no spear, no woman,
No tree to stand under and chant, “O, blessed Tree.”
I was nineteen. I dragged my loneliness like a dead cat
To the levee. The water rushed black.
The wind whipped the eucalyptus,
That giraffe of trees.
I bent my head over the water
And shook buddha-shaped ears into that ancient current.
Tires floated by,
The dead carcass of a suitcase,
And overturned kitchen tables with spindly legs
Jutting above the surface. I cried for the fish,
And the fish’s cousin, a one-eyed toad in the reeds.
Then I picked up a stick, me the pagan,
And chased a gopher into a hole.
I grew small and powerful.
As I walked, I became deliriously wild
From carrying my ten-foot spear.
My footprints left dents in the sandy ground,
Footprints that slowly shortened
Until they were only inches apart. By then,
Ants followed my march, beetles and termites,
And one armadillo, a lock-jawed disciple.
By the time I reached town,
I was trouble for married and unmarried women.
I was no bigger than a thumb,
And my spear, Jesus Christ, tottered n my arms
And stirred the populace from their houses -
Wondrous girls climbing onto each other’s shoulders
For a glimpse of the thing that sanctified the air.
Speaking of Reba a which I often do, here she is again.
Reba for Congress
i woke
this morning
to heavy rain, thunder
and lightning across
the horizon
and a wet dog
in panic-frenzy because
of the thunder
stupid dog
she stands in the rain
and yowls,
instead of hiding
in her safe little house
on the patio
it’s like watching
the news from
Washington, where
politicians in constant
panic-mode
stand in shitstorms
of tough times
and yowl,
like my stupid dog
oblivious
Reba,
my smart dog,
knows better
she wakes up,
ready for her morning outside
business, stands at patio door,
takes measured note of the weather,
and if it is as it is today,
returns to her bed and to sleep,
legs crossed, until better weather
bodes
i wonder if those crazy
tea party people
would be open to electing
a dog to Congress
(better than the dogs
we’ve got now,
i’d tell them)
maybe
if i took her
to a couple of their
meetings
Here’s my last piece from featured poet Don Schaeffer. Thanks, Don. I look forward to reading your new book.
1875
When Charles Darwin
is doing his thing
the world is gears
clothed in brass with
leather seats
handles of ivory and wood.
Survival is the final
and fierce machine
of judgment. And we all
stand in the light of mechanics
and count our virtues
with a one, two, three.
If we need help
in testing our regeneracy
there are plenty of
carnival performers with tests
For a penny you know
how you stack up. You enter
the great competition-of-life
dance and get your rank, then
turn rank into index
and carry the evolution
quotient in your heart.
This week’s “Here and Now” is chock full of poets I like very much, none more than the next one, one of my all-time favorites, Blaise Cendrars, from a collection of his poems, Complete Poems, published in 1992 by the University of California Press.
Born Frédéric Louis Sauser in 1887, Cendrars led an active and interesting life until his death in 1961. He was a Swiss novelist and poet naturalized French in 1916 and a writer of considerable influence in the modernist movement.
Severely wounded (he lost an arm) in the first World War, he spent much of his life traveling in the years after. An observant, energetic and empathic traveler, you read his travel poems and regret you never had an opportunity to be his traveling companion.
Here are some of those travel poems, snippets of observation, that he recorded in his notebook as he traveled. These poems, as well as all the others in the book, were translated from French to English by Ron Padgett.
Bijou-Concert
No
Never again
I’ll never drag my ass into another one of these colonial dives
I want to be this poor black man I want to be this poor black who stands
in the doorway
Because the beautiful black girls would be my sisters
And not
And not
These stinking French Spanish Serbian German bitches who furnish
the leisures of gloomy functionaries dying to be stationed in Paris and
who don’t know how to kill time
I want to be that poor black man and fritter my time away
Sunsets
Everyone talks about sunsets
All travelers are happy to talk about the sunsets in these waters
There are hundreds of books that do nothing but describe sunsets
The tropical sunsets
Yes it’s true they’re wonderful
But I really prefer the sunrises
Dawn
I wouldn’t miss one for the world
I’m always on deck
In the buff
And I’m always the only one there admiring them
But I’m not going to describe them the dawns
I’m going to keep them for me alone
White Suit
I stroll on deck in the white suit I bought in Dakar
On my feet the espadrilles bought in Villa Garcia
I hold in my hand the Basque beret I brought from Biarritz
My pockets are filled with Caporal Ordinaires
From time to time I sniff my wooden cigarette case from Russia
I jingle he coins in my pocket and a pound sterling in gold
I have my big Calabrian handkerchief and some wax matches the big
kind you find only in London
I’m clean washed scrubbed more than the deck
Happy as a king
Rich as a multimillionaire
Free as a man
Orion
It’s my star
It’s in the form of a hand
It’s my hand gone up into the sky
During the entire war I saw Orion through a lookout slit
When the zeppelins came to bomb Paris they always came from Orion
I have it above my head today
The main mast pierces the palm of that hand which must hurt
as my amputated hand hurts me pierced as it is by a continual stabbing
pain
The Equator
The ocean is dark blue the blue sky is pale next to it
The sea swells all around the horizon
It’s as if the Atlantic were going to spill over into the sky
All around the steamer it’s a vat of pure ultramarine
Crossing the Line
Of course I have been baptized
It’s my eleventh baptism of the line
I got dressed up like a woman and we had a great time
Then we drank
Sunday
It is Sunday on the water
It’s hot
I’m in my cabin as if trapped in melting butter
Eggs
The coast of Brazil is strewn with round bare little islands we’ve been
sailing through for two days
They’re like speckled eggs laid by some gigantic bird
Or like volcanic dung
Or like vulture sphincteroids
Butterfly
It’s odd
For two days now that we’ve been in sight o land not a single bird has
met us or followed in our wake
On the other hand
Today
At dawn
As we were entering the Bay of Rio
A butterfly as big as your hand came fluttering all around the steamer
It was black and yellow with big streaks of faded blue
Rio de Janeiro
Everyone is on deck
We’re in among the mountains
A lighthouse goes dark
They’re looking everywhere for the Sugarloaf and ten people find it in a
hundred different directions so much do these mountains look alike
in their pyroformity
Mr. Lopart shows me a mountain with its profile against the sky like a
a cadaver stretched out with its silhouette looking like Napoleon on his
deathbed
I think it looks more like Wagner a Richard Wagner puffed up with
pride or overwhelmed with fat
Rio is now quite near and you can make out houses on the beach
The officers compare this panorama to that of the Golden Horn
Others talk about the revolt of the forts
Other unanimously deplore the construction of a big tall square
modern hotel that disfigures the bay (the hotel is very beautiful)
Still others vehemently protest the leveling of a mountain
Leaning over the starboard rail I look at
The tropical vegetation of a deserted little island
the huge sun that cuts through the huge vegetation
A little boat with three fishermen
These men moving slowly and methodically
Who work
Who fish
Who catch the fish
Who do not even look at us
Absorbed in their craft
Mictorio
The mictorio is the station toilet
I’m always curious to see it when I arrive in a new country
The john in the station in Santos is a little nook where and immense
earthenware pot which reminds me of the big jars among the vines
in Provence where and immense earthenware pot is buried up to
the neck
A big thick dark wooden sausage sits like a crown on the edge and serves
as a seat
It must be rather uncomfortable and too low
The exact opposite of the tanks of the Bastille which are too high
Sao Paulo
Finally here are some factories a suburb a nice little trolley
Electric lines
A street crowded with people doing their evening shopping
A natural gas tank
Finally we pull into the station
Sao Paulo
I feel like I’m in the station in Nice
Or getting off a Charing Cross in London
I find all my friends
Hello
It’s me
Another couple of days of good rain. I love it.
frog-state
great wet
night
thunder crashing
lightning flashing
rain by the
wash tub
and it looks like
more today
and i’m in a
frog-state
ready
to squat down in the mud
and let the rain run off
my green warty skin
happy -
croaking like the frog-king
on saturday night
and content in my bumpy frog-self...
just don’t bother me
or i’ll pee in your hand
frog-revenge
on those who disturb the rain
Last week in included some haiku from the original Japanese masters of the form. This week I have poems from several of the modern American masters of haiku.
The poems are take from the anthology The Unswept Path - Contemporary American Haiku, published in 2005 by White Pine Press.
The first of the new masters is John Brandi.
Brandi is a native of southern California, born in 1943, a poet and artist associated with the Beat Generation.
daybreak
pollen rising
from the unswept path
~~~
around the bell
blue sky
ringing
~~~
after the storm
a dragonfly
pinned to the cactus
~~~
morning chill
every haystack leans
to the sun
~~~
not knowing what to say
he mails
only the envelope
~~~
without clothes
it’s a different
conversation
Next, I have haiku from Margaret Chula. Chula lived in Japan for twelve years , where she taught creative writing and studied woodblock printing and ikbana. Author of a number of volumes of poetry, she now lives in Oregon.
cushion, incense, bowl
so much preparation to do nothing
~~~
late into the night
we talk of revelations
moon through the pines
~~~
silk sheets
gardenia on the bed stand
unfolds its petals
~~~
waking this morning
from troubled dreams
foxprints on new snow
The next poems are by Cid Corman. He was an editor, poet, land translator. He lived abroad most of his life, first in Europe, then in Japan.
Corman died in 2004.
There is no end and
never was a beginning - so
here we are - amidst
~~~
Only a bunch of
swallows over and over
the darkening stream
~~~
Nothing ends with you -
every leaf on the ground
remembering root
~~~
Alive or dead
I’m in it for
the poetry
Patricia Donegan is an author, poet, translator, and teacher in Tokyo, Japan.
summer twilight -
a woman’s song
mingles with the bath water
~~~
winter afternoon
not one branch moves - I listen to my bones
~~~
Pampas grass bends
bodies
intertwined
~~~
spring wind -
I too
am dust
And, finally, this series by Diane DiPrima, another import
ant poet from the beat generation.
Death Poems In April
1
even the Buddha lay down
to breathe his last,
why am I struggling?
2
easy to disappear
into this fog
3
pour this water and ash
on the roots
of some old tree
Continuing my long tradition (it’s my blog, if I saw two weeks is a long tradition, two weeks is a long tradition) of closing out every “Here and Now” issue with one of my old poems. This one was written in 1968 or thereabouts and published thirty years later in January 2000 in Avant Garde Times, another fun zine gone before its time.
The poem, an example of what happens when you mix excessive Whitman hero-worship with a psychedelic time, is not much to brag about on paper, but, I’ve been told by one who heard it, a dynamite read if read by a good dramatic reader.
Our work is like our children, we claim what we can for it.
notes from a grounded witchdoctor
rosy glow
rosy glow
breaks the light
into silken clouds
of floating pink
drifting
drifting
into the expanding
corners of my pulsating room
rooms
fields
tiny
universe
growing
growing
to big
too much
falling back falling back
regrouping
afraid of reaching
give me room
control
control
sure
no longer afraid
jumping for the clouds
riding
riding
into the ever expanding
corners of my pulsating room
riding
clouds of taffy
sticking
sucking
pulling me to the floor
phosphorescent walls quake and tilt
throwing off slippery shadows
that pool at the floor
eat at the floor
and leap at me
with the deliberate
slow pace
of the unconquered tide
then turn golden
then red
at my feet
the angry lobster redness
the infectious angry redness
colors my feet
and crawls up my leg
chewing
chewing
chewing
reaching
crawling
pulling at my body
pulling me to a high place
i stand atop a hill
in the shade of a tree
a wide spreading tree
birds sing from the tree
and i understand the song
and try to sing along
but the birds stop
and leave me singing
alone
alone
until a bird lunges from the tree
to stand on the ground
to become a shadow figure
a man in black
a man with no face
black space where a face should be
the thing
the shadow faceless thing
begins to cry
and the birds come from the trees
and land on his shoulders
as crows
great black crows
evil black crows
that sit on phantasmal shoulders
and cry
the ground collapses beneath me
the hill flattens beneath me
and i’m in a valley
and the hill is behind me
and the figure
and the crows
stand on the hill and cry
so far above me
as the hill shimmers
through the heat of the valley
fades
disappears
i’m alone in the valley
in the dust of the valley
in the hot hot dust of the valley
hotter and hotter
in the valley
and i’m lying naked
in the boiling mud
of the valley
people stand around me
men and women without faces
black spaces where faces
ought to be
men and women
in long black skirts
that drag
in the mud
they laugh at me
great ghastly specters
from a tribal past
they laugh at me
i press my cracked lips
into the mud and try to suck
for water and burn
my face and my lips and tongue
mud
mud
mud
not mud
grass
wet grass
dew-wet grass
cool dew-wet grass
i run my tongue over the grass
bite into the grass
chew on its coolness
i lie on my back
under the cool fresh sky
and stretch out my arms
and pull handfuls of grass
and throw them at the sun
and let the grass
rain back on me
and i catch it with my body
i crawl beneath
the grass and meadow flowers
and roots and working earthworms
and look up to watch
the sun in its forever agony
of circling
circling
ever circling
i watch the sun
through the roots
and grass and crawling insects
from behind the petals
of meadow flowers
circling
circling
circling
falling
crashing
diving
swooping
clawing at my eyes
burning at my eyes
searing my eyes and cheeks
and lips
and screaming tongue
i close my eyes
and i’m in a room
a small room
a dark room
a black room
a room without light
but for a small dot
pulsating off and on
off and on
off and on
off and on
in one corner of the room
the dot grows
bigger and bigger
off and on
bigger and bigger
it crashes toward me
washes over me
leaves me in a lonely light
alone
alone now
alone
alone now
lying on my floor
linoleum cold against my cheek
i turn on my back
alone of the floor
and sleep
Enough.
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